I am looking to find myself first.
Then I will be looking to find others.. I lost myself and my identity in the maze of married life..And life in general.. My work and my obligations do not give me time to meet new and interesting people. Does it sound familiar in a way?

I would love to meet a person, who would not mind to talk about himself,his family, his kids.. his work, his friends, and enemies.. . and me.. to talk the same.. Just to share his day .. the good, the bad. Someone who would make me laugh with silly jokes..NOTE to all eager men out there:
. (I am NOT a bored housewife looking for an intimate encounter with a stud or someone who THINKS is one).

I would add: When you write to me, please double check your spelling skills. English is my SECOND language, and the structure of my sentence may be not perfect, but I pride myself to be a good speller.. so show me, you were a good student in your English class while studying your OWN language.. I will give an example.. sweet hart..heart not hart...


Music... I love classical music but 80's music makes me happy too.Do you remember HOT Chocolate? I believe in miracles..that type of music.. Or Barbra Streisand, or
aging now artists from the 80's... but with evergreen voices...
Like Dean Martin, though he is from earlier period of time..

. No, no country music.. Too much drama..who cheated first and how many tears...
.. Oh, I would love to learn to dance salsa.(this will put me right in shape). or ball room dancing may be.( I wish ). If I find the time of course.. the most expensive commodity in my life..
For now reading is my biggest pleasure...
Hockey is NOT my thing or football ..I do not understand it..( I just cut a huge percentage of the male population with this sentence)

I am not interested to listen about the latest Russian addition to the Canadian hockey.( I just saw OVECHKIN shirt in the mall. Are you people gone crazy? This shirt is for the Russian Mall in Moscow, not Fraser Valley...(Gretzky I do understand, but OVECHKIN? If I had little boy named Ryan playing passionately hockey I would put a Canadian role model.. not some imported money making toothless guy with a Swiss account...Mind you, I am an immigrant myself so you can not call me biased.. If I live here, I respect where I live, the language, the culture, the everything my gracious host gave me..

Cars? A car is a machine to drive from point A to point B. If you have the latest model THE CAR MODEL SXMSO3345 I do not care of the power of the engine and how it was built.. It is still a machine for point to point drive.. Same for the motor bikes..And please do not send me pictures how you wash your car.. It did happen.
And no shirt pictures are a big no no..

I am interested about people.. How people function.. what makes them do what they do.. and why? I am interested about motivation as a topic ... what motivates people?
Also I am looking for an advice about raising a young man. What a mom should and should not do. Please help with this one.. I have never been a young man..
My husband is clueless .. so other men advice is appreciated. The age is 14/15. I am interested.Please help.

Describe what makes me unique.. What question is that? I am unique.. You are unique.. everyone out there is unique.. unless we are clones..
Oh, I speak with an accent.. if this is what makes me unique? Well there are at least a few millions out there who speak like me.. so no, may be I am not unique this way..
I used to be a great cook. I cooked with a flare.. Notice how it is all in Past tense?
As I said I lost myself. and now I am trying to find my Creative self...
I loved to paint .. murals.. create images with a brush ...
And most of all I want to find this piece of me, which was able to make a lot out of nothing.. ( no, no fights with hubby, I mean CREATIVITY, EXPRESSION..)
I loved my high heels.. I had lots of compliments how high heeled shoes enhanced my legs..IN THE PAST.. I thing I might be willing to try again if I find myself somewhere.. If I find myself ..
When I look at the mirror in the morning,I don't see myself.. I am too busy.. like the 21st century woman of middle age.. ON THE RUN is my name..I believe that 51 is the new 41... . Oooops.. I am 52 which makes me 42...
October 2009
Thanks for all the responses I got from my profile. You people do not get discouraged if I do not respond right this second. I have my life to live here besides swimming in a digital pond..
And here is one poem by Emily
Dickinson.

I like it. Here we go:

. She rose to his requirement, dropped
The playthings of her life
To take the honorable work
Of woman and of wife.

If aught she missed in her new day
Of amplitude, or awe,
Or first prospective, or the gold
In using wore away,

It lay unmentioned, as the sea
Develops pearl and weed,
But only to himself is known
The fathoms they abide.

A bit old fashioned but still applicable today in the 21st century...

Describe what would you do for a first date.. Date? What was that? Oh, probably would go for a coffee at Starbucks. I would not call it a date...Meeting may be.. I am married after all.. And please understand, sometimes it is hard to find time even for one coffee....