starting again in my being. honestly, i am looking for my mate. dont know where she is, havent found her yet. words i had here befor were writtin out of bitter hate. lied and betrayed to again. hope all understand. i am looking for the good things we all miss, but i will try.just dont want to be hurt again is all. i am very open minded.just understand that if i think ur playin with me...i will call u on it. no more games.....i will take the time to develope a relationship gain. not jumping anywhere. in time maybe before i grow too old, i would love to have a family and look in my own childs eyes. someday maybe. i want all the right and good things that we all dreampt about when we were young. fantasies about how life would be with the 1 special person....well, that is what i crave and will be alone till it happens. i have faults, hell we all do. loving someone is also about dealing with every aspect of them. i have always done that. time will tell. i am very sarcatic and tend to push. hope u see thru my front. all teddybear behind it. then u can hold me

hmmmm. unsure here anymore. i am and try to be a good cook. a nice dinner, candles and a good movie would be good. if i am going to have a first date with someone, they already shoulda got to know me first. whats the point of going out? i evjoy quiet times and deep conversations. when i have time...i go watch the sunset.....moon rise behind me in a very special place.....a place i sat as a kid on a bike.... but nothing will replace the beauty. its a good place....very romantic.
i wish to open myself up again and let my walls down.
i havent been myself in a bit, but trying....