Update: Nov 19/09- Killing POF account on December 25/09. This is my christmas present to myself. I am a passionate woman, believing in chemistry and electricity but I have yet to meet my match, my mate. If my man is in POF then his time is running out to grab hold and provide some sparks=) But that is it...countdown starts...now...30 days to go.


arghhhhhh this site is soooo freakin' frustrating...i'm looking for THE GUY...i'm more than ready to find someone, i've been single long enough to know what i want...so for flips sakes here's my list....

you have:

most of your teeth(hygene boys)

you don't have a girlfriend, ex of 2 weeks, or a wife

you understand that i have feelings and hate to be stood up

you want more than a one night stand

you have empathy, sympathy...a heart

you don't lie when you want something, or out of something

you are ready to be open for a real relationship...not an open relationship

*you always treat a lady like a lady* this one is very important!!



Now I hope that when you read the following you will take it seriously!

thank you
cin

This is what i know:

I know I'm funny, positive, witty, loving, attractive, intelligent, passionate, loyal and honest. I know I have morals, ethics, a healthy attitude, great friends, and a sense of adventure. I can cook, clean and sew. And yes, for the most part, I am humble.

I know my faults as well. I am not working at the moment, on a government disability while I fight WCB insurance. NO, not welfare. I am a hard worker so this has been tough for me. I do not have a vehicle even though I can drive. I have no money in the bank. I lost everything in Dec 2008 when I walked out on a seven year relationship when I walked in on him and his co-worker.

But rest assured, I am not a gold digger and am not looking for someone to take care of me. I am looking for my life partner. Someone I can lean on and that can lean on me. I am a survivor of many tough times and that is what has made me who I am. *update Nov1/08 in my new place and all settled...crazy neighbours but no more crazy roommates!! Would love to have a mate to cook dinner for as this is my first kitchen in a year=) I am a pretty good cook=)



What I don't know is why finding a mate is so hard. We all know basically what we want in a soulmate...yet still don't seem to find what we are looking for. Are we reaching past our wants and desires and missing them entirely? Am I walking past you in the store and not noticing because my head is in the clouds? Dreaming of a man instead of searching for him while awake? hmmmm

I have had to re-think POF, as for some reason the fellows I think would have the same ideals don't see me. Then there are the fellows that just want to hook up, most are actually honest in this attempt to bed all that is female.

And then of course, we have the not so honest. If you just want to get laid there are plenty of deformed fish in this polluted pond so please pick one of them.

I am filled with love to give and look forward to a day that I'll have a good man by my side. Is it even possible he's in POF?...Is he just as damned lonely as me, tired of dating/pof games, and just waiting for a good woman fall in his lap? I sure hope so...because I can be a bit clumsy =)

So I will try here and see if I meet my mate. The fellow that gives me butterflies and makes me feel safe, the one that wants me as much as I want him. He may be here he may not, but still I hope.

ps
over the past year i have lost 40 lbs and have kept working at =)

pss
oh, by the way i don't like being told what to do, ask and i may, demand and i'll walk out the door. i'm too independant for control freaks...don't like it??? try another chick...it's all about mutual respect and compromise. when you truly love someone you don't want to cage them but let them be free to be themselves, the person you fell in love with...

psss
i don't know why some of you fellows think i'm a man hater, nothing could be further from the truth...hence, no shopping list of what i want or don't want in a man...we are unique i accept that *damn had to add a list arghhhhh


you know...i am just me, i can't be you...if you are upset by my thoughts and feelings then you are just not for me...and if that's the case then why would i care about your opinion...




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First meet i'll be nervous and jumpy, i'll talk way too much, i'll even fidget. Wait for it...i do relax in time.

i can't help feel that pof should be called blind-date, i feel like i'm at an interview...am i sweating? do i look ok? spinach in my teeth? did i just say something dumb? am i boring? omg am i babbling?!?

the list goes on


If we get to a date I can be pretty entertaining, a bit of a clown at times, so I can make you laugh.

One Word,
Picnic=)
good anytime of the day, week, or year. Pack it up and go have an adventure.

Best picnics are spur of the moment...stop at Thrifty's hit the deli for sandwich fixin's and grab some fruit for dessert, together decide what to take...