I don't know what to say. The idea of selling myself is repulsive and yet somehow it is a requirement for this method of meeting people. I miss the days where you could strike up a conversation in line at the store and no one thought anything of it. There weren't sideways glances and the automatic assumption that the person speaking is hitting on you or wanting something from you. What happened to laying eyes on a person as the first impression? I feel oddly old having these feelings yet retain the fact that I am 27 years old.
How can I describe who I am? I guess tonight I am a girl sitting at her latop typing some words on the screen that lead to hours of internalized self reflection and a paragraph or two for public viewing. In a few hours I will be the girl laying down and deciding to read a book or watch a movie.. but that debate is for a few hours later than now. Earlier today I was the girl running errands on her first vacation day in months and getting together with family at the pub. Tomorrow I will probably be the girl cleaning the house mixed with time on the playstation and putting pen to paper to release the thoughts inside. Next week I will be the girl working three jobs and finding the time for something completely different.
The consistencies will lie in the coffee I drink, the laughs I share, the opinions I have, the paths I choose to take, the ideals I strive for and the people that call to my blood.
Three years from now I will still be the girl who finishes that mediocre novel to appreciate the fact that life is a spectrum and polarity breeds thought. I will appreciate the differences that force people to think and feel. I will be the girl that appreciates the intertwining fires of relationships and the warmth of comfort that comes from being with another.

My idea of fun date: A coffee where the conversation doesn't die out and we look around us awkwardly, a movie where we can't wait to get out to talk about it or other things, a joint venture into the unknown (which I think every date one truly is).