This New Year, I sat down and took inventory of my life. I was very happy with my life. Very happy with my job and very happy in general with all the things going in my life except one particular area. I would frequently raise my eyes to watch the women of the city go by. Some are beautiful, other trying to be glamorous, but many would be considered plain or average. But to the man whose hand or arm is holding, she is not 'average.' She is the whole world to him. My heart wished I was him. Yet is it likely that somewhere in the world exist a women that was meant for me? It is my desire to meet one special person to be my first and last date. I don't want to kiss 20 frogs before finding out a real princess or changing partners as garments. I feel no passion to go out on another trivial date and pretend to laugh and then I realize how selfish and shallow they really are and then I feel like I am sorry I ever met them. I give up. I can live alone. I'm independent, handsome, intelligent, finical stable, and come from a great family. I've got my health. When you say. 'I've got my health,' you know you've hit rock bottom. What keeps me going? 'The Lone Pilgrim,' a short story by Laurie Colwin in which she describe a person searching for a mate. 'It's about going to a party and going home alone in a taxicab in New York.' It is about holding other people's babies, but not having your own. Basically, once upon a time there was a man who was a lone pilgrim looking for his counterpart who is a lone pilgrim. Someone who sees her thinks she is extremely attractive, beautiful, sophisticated has a great smile, figure, and she is between 2032. Someone who talks to her recognizes she has a very sexy voice, highly educated and very intelligent, warm, charming, positive, humorous. Her mother says she is not able to make the right choice in a man. Her ex thinks she is the best lover possible, passionate, and attentive. (They still call her) Her friends think sh e is loyal and can be trusted. She herself thinks it is time to find a harmony and stability man who is not afraid to be too close and to give and get married. The fact is she deserves the best and is worthy of the investment. People can't understand why she stills single. What they fail to understand is She work hard to get and be the person she is now. She can't just settle with anyone. For loving another human being brings my heart into contact with the rawness of my soul. And the unfolding process is special and should be given to a special person. I have always felt that I just missed 'her' at the bookstore, around the corner of the street, at fund-raiser...so if u are here now...respond please. I am a man who makes every moment priceless. I've been around the world. I've been in love (a few times) and still an open heart to speak of. People say I am a great catch. I'm realistic idealist. I believe in faith, fate, heart, and soul. I believe all good things come in time and w hen the times is right, the right women will come also. In a sense it is like thinking that my soulmate as being on a string that is infinitely long, but nevertheless attached to me in some invisible way. It is only a matter of trusting that I can bring that string to me and that whatever is supposed to come to my life will be there when I have developed the capacity to receive it. I will fall in love with her the minute that I would meet her. It all flashed in front of me in a second marrying her, having kids, living this Norman Rockwell life. From the start, we will have long talk about everything from stocks to love to sex. ' She was from worlds away, but somehow we emerged as people who had so much to say to one another. In a way, I am like a character in a Merchant Ivory film, a young man deeply moved by poetry, walks in the woods, friendships and especially classical music. People have described me as intense and emotional. So my soulmate, if you here me now Then respond. If i t not you, please leave me alone. For I can't go for another round of pain again. I had enough. I wonder sometimes if you change one thing in your life like make a left turn instead of a right or take a different way to work or take a class you normally might not have taken you might meet someone who you might never have met because of your schedules or your lives. That left turn could change your world. That or get you lost! But maybe lost in good way

It seem that everyone looking for the "BEST", the tallest, richest, handsome. I am looking for the "RIGHT" person. The "right" person is the person who will bring the best out of you. You see, I am looking for the experience of being with the right person. A sense of belonging, acceptance. Woman who look great are a dime a dozen--its the woman who helps me feel, the one who give me the experience I want is the one who I am willing to take a leap with. I realized that the things I really enjoy, the things that give me the most pleasure and make life worth living, are all things I already have. A walk in the park, some quality time with family and friends. An hour in the sun, No woman can give these things to me or take them away, so there's no reason to act as though the world will come to an end if that random conversation with a woman that doesn't develop into a relationship but a major obstacle for finding a partner is that I'm not interested in dating either. I can't imagine cycling through women after women. It seems pretty brutal on the face of it. And it takes a large toll on my mind, body and spirit. The motto is: AVOID the PAIN. Most people love checklist consist of physically attributes that doesn't go to the core of a person's character. The beautiful blond may have a terrible problem with anger. A person can look like a movie star, but is she reliable and caring. The key question I ask myself is in the presence of this special person is do I like myself more? The smartest women knows that she always wants to be remembered for who she is, not how she looks.