I can't believe how monotone life is outside of college... It's so standard and monotone that it's insane. In college, no matter how drunken and sloppily I had a night, it was lived, it was a uncertain and random. We're not supposed to be living life in traffic or drowning in paperwork. There's 510072000 km² of surface area on the planet, with 29.2% of that being land. I can't find myself commuting back and forth between 40 miles of road and walking laps around a hospital until the day I die. Just think of the amount we cover in a single day and where we go: no where. We probably travel enough in our life to cover the entire globe, but the more we walk, the less we go.

I can't live like that. I want to see it all. I want to be uncertain and unaware. I don't want to worry about bills or utilities, I don't want to even think about social status. I just want to live. I want to end everyday with a smile on my face, I want to see everything this planet has to offer and any other planet I can reach. What I can't do is commit to 8 to 5 in a monotone moment where I wonder if my biggest problem is if the copier is out of ink and who do I contact about fixing that. I want to climb mountains, get drunk, and slide my way back down on a sled made out of beer cans. We're only given one life and I'll be damned if I spend it tucked away in a cubicle.

I want to cry out to the world and let it swallow me whole. When everyone gathers at my funeral, I want everyone to stand up and say that man knew how to ****ing live and hopefully someone out there will understand that life and live. The meaning of life isn't something that's grand or artistic. It's personal and incomprehensible to everyone else around you because the meaning of life is what you make it: It's how you shape the world out of clay and how that clay shapes you. You're supposed to live and the more time you spend questioning what, how, or why; the less you live.