I had this all written out and kept it up and posted for some time. The last few weeks have had me rethink what needs to be said about a person in here(myself). I never came here to date in the beginning and don't know that it is what I am looking for now. I initially came here by a fluke. You know how sometimes you get bored and you decide to google something?...I got bored and I googled my husbands screen name. POOF!!!..divorced man looking for a friend and ultimatly a lover. SAY WHAT?... that is my husband!!!...can you imagine the hurt?..not including the humiliation. I write this now because I have gotten many letters from married men looking for a good time girl. I have turned into an internet therapist...or so it seems. To all the men (and women) looking for a romp...is it worth it?...I see guys with thier pictures posted.. wakeup call guys... wives have single friends who enjoy these sites too. Some women have the smarts to do just what I did. I am now 300 miles from my husband..I left him.. for this reason and others. I just hope that people can appreciate thier spouses enough to show them the respect to rethink it.
ok so now onto me. I just wrote how I got here. Why I stayed?..I got letters from men and women alike. I can honestly say I made some nice friends here. I don't know if I am ready to take anything further than a greet and meet friend. I am still legally married and for some reason things just don't feel right yet. I am still in mourning of the loss..seperation or divorce to me is like a death and it takes time to heal from. I would be lying if I said I am ready to jump in and get wet. Everything takes time to develop into a beautiful thing. I like getting to know people online. It is just easier to talk. I think friendship is a great starting point and if it can develop into something more.. thats great. If I make a friend in the process I am richer for doing so.
There will be times I won't answer an e-mail..I hope no one takes it personal.. I read an e-mail (thinking I will answer that later) and I forget or I get really busy and sometimes don't even get to open my mail.
I know people get frustrated because I don't call or don't want them to call me. Sometimes letting someone have your number can really put you in a bad spot. Yes I know I am not getting any younger and I need to jump into modern day technology. I also believe in being careful. There are many nice people here..but there are also some really crazy people in the world we live in.
What am I looking for in a person?...well... be it a friend or someone who may one day become more.. number one thing is HONESTY...I don't want someone in my life who cannot tell me the truth. I want to be around someone I can trust. If you have no trust... you have nothing. Lack of trust will destroy any relationship. I like a fun person who can make me laugh..someone who is going to stick with me and by me no matter what we have gotten ourselves into. There is a song I listen to by Joshua Radin and when I hear it I think one day I want a guy who can say these words to me....

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
Say you feel the way I do

quiet places to talk...a long walk in the park or a chat over coffee.