The Ugly Truth
After being married many years, my now ex-husband, decided he no longer loved me, and said due to his business situation he had to leave to "get his head together". Little did I know he would never come back. So after a separation of 1 & 1/2 years, I paid for the divorce, went back to my maiden name, and have done my best to carry on, asking absolutely nothing from him. Looking for a relationship is not easy, albeit a very frustrating one. I have come to believe that some men aren't looking for a real relationship. On a lark I signed up to LavaLife. If you have been there,..you will know there are 3 sections "DATING, RELATIONSHIP, and INTIMATE" I was on about 3 weeks and in that time I had 215 men look at me in the Dating section,....In the Relationship section, I got 136 hits,..and in the Intimate section I had 916 men who looked at me and 401 backstages passes which consisted of naked pics of their .....WOW all shapes and sizes! And pathetically funny too! Now back to POF,.. I have had dates with some very nice men but unfortunately, not any that I was attracted to enough to see again. That spark just wasn't there. Someone told me Love begins in the Eyes, moves to the Brain, and rests in the Heart. I believe its true but why is it so hard to find? Are we too picky? It seemed to be so easy when we were young. Sometimes, I get lonely but I don't mind living alone,...there is a difference. I'm not a cling on,...(fairly independent,) I have my own money and I don't need or want yours, I look younger then I am... funny, (I love to laugh) I'm honest, (to a fault).... adventurous, (open to new situations) sometimes shy, (until the ice is broken and that doesn't usually take too long) and easy to forgive. As comfortable in jeans and T's as I am if I need to get dressed up. I was told by one jerk on here that I was fat. I am a size 8/10. I quess if you're attracted to the anorexic type.... I may have a little baggage,...but only a small purse full (AND WE ALL DO WHETHER WE ADMIT IT OR NOT,...You've lived life,...U Have Baggage!) It's about what u do with it. I love intimacy,...when the time's right and finally smart,...(not a genius, but smart). What am I looking for in a partner? I'd like to meet someone who is handsome,...well to me. I keep reading all the profiles from men who like to cuddle.....is that true? I want a man who is my equal, who likes to talk, To hold hands without me having to ask. A man who values honesty, and integrity above all things. Someone with manners and class. Someone spontaneous, who loves to do things, ie: get aways, dinners, anything but a couch potato who lives for the next hockey game or sporting event on the boob tube. Heck, lets go out to a game together! I love the excitement of being there in person. If I've looked at You a few times,..I could be interested. If you think you might be one of those men,...don't be scared, I don't bite. And if you aren't what I'm looking for, I will tell u in the kindest way possible. I don't want to hurt anyone,...Like some people on here!
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PS:I didn't tell you my break-up story so I could hear what a jerk my ex is,...I know he is...I just wanted you to know that I'm a survior and inspite of all the crap he put me through, I still believe there's someone wandering looking for me too.

Our first date,.....whatever we decide to do.
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