Hobbies: art, mostly computer graphics, laughing: it's been a long time since I laughed, I can barely manage a smile right now; simple country life: swimming, riding: horseback....I could listen for hours, with the right comforting arms around me... to good music: I also sing, have my own karaoke, I used to sing professionally ( I occasionally sing at major gatherings, - at weddings and funerals...mostly classical, blues, country, Celtic folk, soft rock). Favorites are the Moody Blues ('Nights In White Satin'...), Skylark (they sing a beautiful song called: 'Wildflower')
Adore animals and kids. I used to enjoy alot of things...

If anything, this site, and others like it, have only succeeded in making me feel really old and unimportant. I am 54 years old, NOT '50'. The 'edit' won't let me correct the error. I am presently scraping the remains of my self-esteem off the floor. As far as any hope for a future meaningful relationship goes, I no longer believe I'll find it here...regardless of how pretty, how rich, talented, loving, loyal, and honest I am, I have lost all hope. What do men expect of a 54 year old woman who just wants to grow old gracefully, with the man who loves me, besides me for the WHOLE ride? I am starting to feel like I am not going to accomplish anything by staying here, taking up precious space (absolutely NO sarcasm intended).

No offence, but 'Plenty of Fish' seems strongly geared towards pleasing men. I feel deeply humiliated, subjugated, and SOOO embarrassed. Most of all, I feel more lonely now than I did before I joined. How could I be so stupid to think that someone could fall in love with me? ...a 54 year old woman?
I will keep my profile here for awhile...

Well...GREAT NEWS! I now have a very beautiful NEW puppy, she's 5 months old now.
If I never have another man in my life I will still be very happy, she is soo full of love!!!!! THE UNCONDITIONAL kind!

Now, if there is a man who love me as deeply, I will consider myself truly blessed...

Pray that the one I'm with will not hurt me, and maybe...help me find my smile.

WHAT AM I DOING WRONG???