Week #13,I have been in this pond for what seems like a long time. I have had some nibbles, a few bites, but still have not caught the fish I can keep. I have decided to go back into my tackle box once again and change my lure. This time I will not talk about me, but rather you. I will offer that I'm a man who has made judgement errors and some mistak's regarding how I behaved at times in my life. Those errors were lessons and combined with maturity and introspection, have aided me to fully understand my responsibility in maintaining a rich and cherished relationship. The fish I have thus far managed to get on my hook have yet to be of a similar mind set and I had to gently put them back in the pond. The fact that I have not yet found that one trophy fish has not deterred me, only made me more determined to do so. A partner is the only element that is missing from my other wise joyus life and still remains my quest. I, possibly like yourself have had previous relationships and experienced the joy of being romantically connected to that special partner, that is totally yours. The inhancement that having that partner brings to ones life is very special, and often difficult to describe, but rather a sensation of a combination of emotions that "just make you feel really good". This non tangible sensation is the elusive connection I long for and hope there is a women in this pond somewhere out there who feels the same. I'm well aware that a connection with a women that brings that sensation is rare, as are all precious objects and experiences that have true value. I now feel that it is within my and a similarly enlightened womens desire to create, as opposed to finding that sensation, as her thoughts on the creation of a relationship match mine. The women who is reading this is a kind women,very intelligent,compassionate,wise,has a loving heart and intentionally wants to do the right thing. This women desires to give love and needs love. She has experienced that sensation I speak of, but somehow it vanished either by her neglect or her partners, and she will not let that happen again, if that blessing comes her way again. This rare women will be considerate of my comfort on our journeys, as I will be to her. This companion will not consciously calculate which one of us is the more giving as her giving is a natural part of her personality, as it is mine. She will see my strengths as virtures knowing I'm protecting the love we share and what I lack, she will lovingly add ! She has learned of the fragility of a love, that is not cautionsly cared for as I have, and is now mindfull of what is required to perpetuate and allow that love to grow to a healthy and indestructable union. Lastly because of her wisdom gleaned from living life and combined with introspective insight and the maturity of her years finally understands that a great love requires a great women and a great man, and she now wants to be great, as I do, and is prepared,religiously,spiritualy or cosmically to achieve that objective. I truly feel in my heart such a women is out there looking for me, we just have not come into contact yet,it is that simple !

Where ever we could talk,sip a wine or coffee and get to know a little more about each others thoughts that we do not just share with anyone unless we feel totally comfortable with them.