I am 41. I have had one love and its over. I will try harder than ever for the next go round but what can I say about trying to hard? I drink sometimes, I smoke, and I work ceramics to build a studio. I collect disability for depression that came to be about 2 years ago. I lost all I had when I lost my girlfrind. To what? Nothing. A real loser. I am trying to find a place of my own, meanwhile I work in my moms studio pouring forms and working art. I love dogs. I love kids.