Lets face it you might be too dense to maintain an intellegent conversation and I might be too ignorant, however, I remain curious. Curiosity never killed the cat it only made her aware. She's an inquisitive creature who weaves through new plains with caution, never dropping focus, she bends the limits of enlightenment to rid herself of fear...

I love to build things: very creative and innovative. I always like to challenge my self with new experiences, especially diving head first, blind folded, into the very things which I fear. I am like the seasons of the year and possibly ranked amongst the esoteric. I am always in a constant state of growth and change...Words that describe me would be. eccentric,ambivalence, eclectic, sardonic, malevolence, mellifluous, prolifically illogical, illogically prolific, articulate, obnoxiously adorable, funny, witty, charming, caring, independent,intriguing, received my education through the streets, the California penal system, and more or less through life experience...I live vicariously through other's mistakes...I have created the voracity to succeed in life by any means...if silence is the language of kings then I must be the mother ****in jester son! no doubt the non existent god broke the mold when he made me!

here n now has come n gone, exploded n returnned here n now, back again destination unknown
skeptism shrouds the mind. This time I have lost the trust. How am I to feel secure again? I yearn to regain that type of confidence, but the fact of the matter is that a boundry was crossed. What a ****ed up web we wove, dove too fast into a vast world honest love and crashed head first into a wall. Crumbling we've crumbled and happend to arise on opposite sides of the rubble.

The future holds limitless possibilities. The past holds lessons. ****ing learn already from the shattered fragments of passed memories soaked in guilt and regret. LEARN so that today we may create memories which can maintain their integrity, not shattering into deplorable moments of guilt ridden regrets and self deprivating actions. Your torment is self iiflicted while I live with you in it.

I know what it is in which I desire, but today seems to hold my skeptism. I know my love is genuine, I know my heart does not lie, I just cannot seem to escape the decorative decptive concepts which are conjured in my mind. God Dammit I hope we stand honest together, creating soild steps of comendable, monumental moments that have a foundation strong enough to withstand the worst turmoil imaginable, worse than what even the devil him self wishes upon us.

Too smart to be so easily seducted. Too kind, too caring, too genuine, too daring, almost too blind to see that "I AM MY OWN WORST ENEMY."

Give me sabotage. Bestowe me with physical, mental, and emotional destruction. I am less deserving of such earnest love and effection because I am so accustom to the blissful ignorance of being discontent and enjoying the smoke I blow in mirrors to disable the reflections of dysfucntion.

Let my eyes resemble mirrors. I give them to you. They will only reflect that in which I have always seen; Strength, wisdom, honesty and passion. Beauty, elegance, unique and leader not a follower of the masses.

Defects, flaws and previous dishonorable actions can all be reconciled with the proper attraction; THE DESIRE TO SUCCEED. The realization of what it means to appreciate THIS MOMENT WHERE NOW IS IN LIVE ACTION.

I maintain my passion for the moment where I live to act in the now. Knowledge applied is far greater than whats merely known which is why I wear my heart on my sleave and I am never hesitant to let it be shown. I proclaim my love to be forever strong and ture. Everyday I display my love in hopes that you feel it and return it too.