I live alone with my two kids...A son(17)starting college in a few short months and my little girl(7). I work in Home Health care as this allows me the time and flexibility I need to go to school full time.

My chosen field of study is psychology although I also have a passion for words/writing and philosophy(also including writings of sacred/ancient text). I seem to be driven by a desire to gain understanding and knowledge wherever it finds me on this journey,including all that which another may deem as subjective knowing and/or the philosophically untenable.(YEP even possibly that which another may deem as the non rational) In which that's all cool too because not all things are always rational but still yet,we want/need/desire it anyway...take love for example/hehe)

The simplicity of things is that which I value deeply. (for example;tender moments with my kids as they grow,the calmness/stillness before a dawn) and to find this other that has mastered the art of being able to slow down and embrace life in such a way would indeed make my "heart smile!"

And these things I mention may possibly make me seem quite ordinary to some others but still yet,I believe that there are moments embraced in it's simplicity that can sometimes be the most profound!

Besides...there's enough confusion already in the world without me adding to it by being someone that I simply am not. So therefore,I do strive on being true to who I am. And with that being said;

Within that which makes up one's "real essence",I believe one may find many parts of the soul unwinding as we each come with our own counterparts---passions in life. Finding this other to share passions in life...for life...indeed would also make my "heart smile!"

Although,I've had a profile up for quite awhile,I must admit that most of my time spent on line is used reading in the forums and poetry threads.I'm not into speed dating and/or serial dating but when there are common interests and thoughts shared,I can step it up to where an actual meet does take place.

On a first date,I could be at a level of comfort while doing a range of most anything from going to a basketball or football game,going to a batting cage,fishing or just sitting at a corner cafe while getting to know the person a bit more.

And no,you do not have to be sports minded to be able to hold my attention.There are many possibilities as to of what we may share the same interests in as my profile read may already suggest.

The rest of my profile read consist of just a few of the poems I've written that help me breathe in a little deeper.


Paint Me If You Must

Paint me if you must...

as just another delusional fool
while this trembling ink
floods the page in harmonious prose....

And what one may deem as 'madness,'
another deems as an absolute joy.
So paint me if you must
but with every color of the rainbow
extracting
purifying
heaven's kiss descending as you go.....

And if you must paint me,
then paint all of me...

With melancholic drops that trickle down the pen
stenciled in
absorbing the grey tones of my heart;
this place where inspiration may even sometimes get lost
within the bondage and constraints placed on that vital part.

So if you feel you must paint me,
you must paint 'all' of me....

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When A Moment Becomes A Forever And A Day

Smile a little smile
Dream a little dream
Stand on this mountain top
Be the wind with me.

When the night falls,
let the moon whisper it's secrets of the dark,
in the dark...awaiting a new dawn.

Now dance with me....
dance in the the rain
knowing the only shelter you need
is me...holding you in my heart.

There is this one I know
that paints 'love'
using the colors of a rainbow
after the rain,
reminding us that the spirit never forgets...

To remind us,
nor should we
as we go
dancing with our hearts
together
embraced as one.


And with a rush of yearning,
while embracing a single moment only to make it last,
let the world go on without us
while we slow down,making a new memory to hold fast.

So stay and I'll hold you like a lover should.
Just sit with me awhile.
You've already touched from a distance.
I just want to feel your smile......

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Twice Upon a Time

Twice upon a time
somewhere
between the twilight and the dawn
standing in the rain
trying to melt the world and all it's madness away
while standing in rain
a final awaiting
as if one were watching for
the sun(son)to appear.....

And as the" mind" reflects back to his youth,
this distant memory that never was,
he finds himself in the present...
twice upon a time
somewhere
between the twilight and the dawn
standing in the rain
with a desire
once again
wishing the world would stop stealing time....

And ah yes, the melancholy
as one tries to keep on the path of truth,
while refusing the strong delusions sent
that forces others to live a lie....

Then suddenly twice upon a time
somewhere
between the twilight and the dawn
while standing in the rain,
he finds the calmness of a shade tree
calling
slowing him down,
and once again, he is able to embrace the motion
as the world and all it's madness passes him by........
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I Thought of You Again Today

I thought of you again today.
All but just a single thought of you,
releasing me,
only to find myself
at a moment where time stands still,
as I make a new memory of us.

My passion,desires,never-ending.....
burns deep inside of me,
longing and wanting
to be set free,.....by only you.

Still,my fleshly desire,my appetite,
just one part of the soul unwinding.....
could never complete my thirst
without this intimacy I share with you in my mind

For my soul is mind....
truly feeling vulnerable and exposed,
as it opens a window to every part of me,
allowing me to listen to the soft whisper of your voice
that calls me,
calms me, in the wind....

this part of me
feeling your touch from a distance,
placing me safely in your arms.....

And enveloped in your arms....
a place... where the world and all it's madness melts away,
there to keep any shadows of darkness at bay....

To be able to embrace of love like this....is to know you.


Yes,I thought of you again today...