| | I'm starting to realize... awaken to the fact that life happens... all the time. Yes, I knew that already but I've just had a spark or moment of enlightenment... Over the last few years life has thrown some curveballs to me which I wasn't prepared for. It got me glum, depressed if you will. I began to feel as though so many possibilities had already passed me by; that doors had forever closed. My life to now has been filled with a lot of fear. Fear to take chances, fear of failure is a humongous hurdle for me... I've always been one to try and please others... I never believed it possible, but to a failing. I've always considered myself open and available like a library book... but now realize how guarded and hidden I keep myself.
So, it's time for something new. Something more challenging for my soul. I've always had the ability to take that leap without looking but always so rare an occasion.
I enjoy taking a drive aimlessly and discovering new places. I've always said, "I don't get lost, I just find new ways to get there." I don't think it's stupid to just sit around on a summer night staring at stars. I find enjoyment in small moments in life and treasure them. How I FEEL about something is infinitely more important to me than the event itself may be.
I'm interested in meeting new people, going out, staying in, having fun, talking about life and how much this or that sucks. One thing I still don't do is serious, precarious heights. Try and put me on a ladder higher than a house gutter and I'm gain butter-knees... I can't win every battle but I'll fight most any demon that comes at me. I've got a good heart and am searching for similar. |
