my heart aches for something i so long to have there are so many things that i want and desire and as i sit here i miss those things so dear to me. i didnt think it would be such a hard journey after making the best choice in my life. im tired of these bumpy roads and wish for peace now. im deap in thought for the things i miss and the things i have made mistakes with. Those things will never return to me as i treck through this journey alone. Alone is scary i so desire to be wanted and needed but its not in the cards for me now but hopefully soon i will break through this cloud of emptyness to the light of the warm sun on my face and the warmth of someones heart that so desires to show me a new journey as we walk hand and hand together.