Love writing poetry, going for coffee, chatting, and hanging out with friends.

Some of my goals are far fetched but someday I will find them and meet them.

I am unique for my love of science, art, and poetry. I write and draw also. Not really good at painting but I do okay on drawing things.

I like hip hop the most but also listen to rock and country depending on my mood.

I am NOT looking for a relationship, only for friends. I do not think my heart can take it anymore. Right now I only want friends that's all. I messed up the greatest person that came into my life. I am opening my profile to share poems and hopefully find some new friends here. :)

I know u are going to see this and I want u to. This is my secret code and everything on here is for you!!!! The lyrics below I have always liked the song but now more than ever it has a lot of meaning to me behind the lyrics.

LOVE LOCK-DOWN LYRICS
BY KAYNE WEST

I'm not lovin' you the way I wanted to
What I had to do, had to run from you
I'm in love with you but the vibe is wrong
And that haunted me all the way home

So you never know, never never know
Never know enough, 'til it's over, love
'Til we lose control, system overload
Screamin', "No, no, no, n-no!?

I'm not lovin' you the way I wanted to
See I wanna move but can't escape from you
So I keep it low, keep a secret code
So everybody else don't have to know

So keep your love locked down, your love locked down
Keepin' your love locked down, your love locked down
I keep your love locked down, your love locked down
I keep your love locked down, you lose

I'm not lovin' you the way I wanted to
I can't keep my cool, so I keep it true
I got somethin' to lose, so I gotta move
I can't keep myself and still keep you too

So I keep in mind when I'm on my own
Somewhere far from home, in the danger zone
How many times did I tell ya ?for it finally got through?
You lose, you lose

I'm not lovin' you the way I wanted to
See I had to go, see I had to move
No more wastin' time, you can't wait for life
We're just racin? time, where's the finish line?

So keep your love locked down, your love locked down
Keepin' your love locked down, your love locked down
I keep your love locked down, your love locked down
I keep your love locked down, you lose

I'm not lovin' you the way I wanted to
I bet no one knew, I got no one new
Know I said I'm through, but got love for you
But I'm not lovin' you the way I wanted to

Gotta keep it goin', keep the lovin' goin'
Keep it on a roll, only God knows
If I be with you, baby I'm confused
You choose, you choose

I'm not lovin' you the way I wanted to
Where I wanna go, I don't need you
I've been down this road, too many times before
I'm not lovin' you the way I wanted to

So keep your love locked down, your love locked down
Keepin' your love locked down, your love locked down
I keep your love locked down, your love locked down
I keep your love locked down, you lose
You lose, you lose, you lose, you lose

ASSUMING....

Assuming can tear you apart
Assuming can break your heart
Assuming can make an a** out of you and me.

Assuming the wrong things
can take away the best part of you
Never assume without knowing!


TODAY I REALIZED I WAS LOVING A CACTUS...

When You Love a Cactus
by Belinda Foster

I attack myself.
Wanting to hold onto you,
Loving that I see you you everywhere.
Hating this dependency,
Disgusted by what is now roaming free in my mind and soul.

These thoughts of having hurt,
These thoughts of causing hurt.
Most of all I fear the need for hurt.

I am so desperate for water.
There are springs overflowing with life,
Rivers running rapid with love.
Still I travel painfully into a desert to seek water from a cactus.

Bleeding with every attempt,
Thorns left beneath my skin.
Once I break through for the small drops of water there,
I find that they were never meant for me.

I deserve to splash in the water,
Swim in the ocean,
Dance in the rain.

I deserve life and love,
Honesty and trust.

How is it that pain can out way pleasure?
That hurt can out way love?
That cacti can out way the water of life?

1. Forget what TV told you.

Contrary to the popular belief (disseminated by the media) all women are not constantly confused, neurotic, insecure about everything, love to watch dizzy chick-flicks, have the size of their intelligence oppositely proportional to their external attractiveness. In actuality a very large percentage of women who like to look good (and put some effort into it) are exceptionally intelligent and well educated. They just start pretending to be less so after they realize that very few men are secure enough to stick around once they realized that the hot blond they are hitting on has a PhD in space engineering (or something like that). Romantic Comedies Warp Your Brain

2. I'm not your ex-girlfriend or ex-wife.

Seriously. I'm not. Just because she yelled at you every time you did not answer her call right away, or cheated on you every time she felt neglected, left you when you got sick/in trouble/etc., etc. does not mean I will do the same. Even if you start behaving like an *** and trying to lead me into doing the same simply because you expect it, still does not mean I will do it. Same stands for the opposite—trying to get me to do something by saying that your ex-girlfriend did it is not a good strategy.

3. To make things easier, assume I know everything.

Give some credit to my intelligence. I am fully capable of connecting my DVD player to the TV. I can even fix your wireless home network and install a new stereo in your car. I really don't need to wait for you to come and replace a burned out light bulb. Treat me as an equal human being, not as a retarded creature for whom you need to dumb down everything you say. Especially in front of your friends and relatives. There are also very few things more frustrating than suggesting something to your partner for it to only be discarded as silly blubber and later on repeated back to you like the most brilliant revelation by the same partner after he heard it from someone else.

4. I have other interests than shopping.

As much as I enjoy finding that gorgeous pair of shoes that actually fit me I don't consider the process of looking for them to be my favorite past-time. We like to try out new things (scuba?—LOVE it; rock climbing?—I'm game if you are). If a woman refuses to try something there are generally three reasons: 1. she tried it before and hated it/got hurt; 2. it involves something she is generally afraid of/dislikes; 3. upon closer examination even you yourself will see that something should not be tried (sure it sounds cool in your head when you think of covering your wet feet in sand to protect them from heat of that fire bed you want to walk through—try saying it out loud and hearing it outside your head first). We also like a guy who is willing to try our favorite extracurricular interests and is not afraid of loosing his "manliness" if he agrees to take up salsa (tango/rumba/etc.) dancing