Just Me Looking...About ready to give up the search but trying this one more time...I guess if I am going to have a profile on here again I need to put forth a little effort (change my bait as a new friend advised me to do =) )

This may end up being rather lengthy....so to those who read all the way to the end Thank You...

For those who dislike or disagree with anything I write, you probably are not the one for me...and I wish you luck....THE MESSAGE INTENDED BY THE PREVIOUS SENTENCE IS....DON'T CONTACT ME....I KNOW I AM EXTREMELY PICKY AND I DON'T NEED YOU TO POINT THAT OUT TO ME....AND IF YOU DON'T FIT THE BILL THEN I AM NONE OF YOUR CONCERN AND I DON'T CARE TO READ YOUR SMARTA** COMMENTS SO SAVE THEM FOR SOMEONE WHO DOES CARE TO KNOW WHAT YOU THINK....

I will save my pet peeves til the end and try to keep it positive until then...=)

As stated above....I am a widow....found someone truly wonderful to love but lost him in an accident....and I am a FULL TIME MOTHER.....my kids are my top priority in this life...they are a blessing and my responsibility...and I love them with all of my heart...life simply wouldn't be worth living without them....This doesn't mean that if I found someone special to love, that I wouldn't have time for them or that they wouldn't be a priority......I have lost two of the most important people in my life....My Mother and as stated above My Husband....So I know the value of the people in my life....and to find someone special to spend the rest of my life with would be simpy amazing....but that little task has proven to be a challenge...

More about me....I believe in God....I believe that without him I wouldn't have made it through the tough times in my life....I consider myself more spiritual than religious because I believe that a person's relationship with God is sacred and private....just between them and God.....and it isn't for anyone else to judge....I am somewhat of a girlie girl, I have been accused of being a little on the spoiled side (I don't think I am THAT spoiled) but when I think about what I am trying to find maybe I am....I am extrememly picky....I have tried to change this but can't seem to do that, I must be true to myself....I am an honest person, I am fiercely protective of those I love, I try to live by the Golden Rule and treat those I meet the way I would want to be treated...I don't like to hurt anyones feelings so this online thing has been most difficult in that respect....

What I want....I want it ALL...the total package I guess....Chemistry or Attraction is a must and has to be there immediately....I wish that weren't so important but it just is....I want to have a sense of security....I want honesty, integrity...like I said, I want it all....About the honesty thing...because of my experiences on POF, I must say...If you feel the need to lie about anything...your age, your drinking...ANYTHING...YOU ARE NOT WHO I AM IN SEARCH OF....Lastly, I am looking for THE ONE I can't live without....not just someone I can live with...

Smoking is a deal breaker.....PERIOD.....I think if you drink more than just occasionally, we probably aren't a match either....and last but not least in this pet peeve paragraph...I am a Player Hater....If your ego requires you to be a player...please move along....I do not share my significant other and am not interested....=) Guess I better add a little something else...personally I have never really been attracted to men that were much older than myself...not to offend anyone by that, just don't want to date anyone who is close in age to My Dad....(or looks like it)(I keep being asked how old my Dad is....he turned 65 in July)

I apologize for this kinda being random and thrown together...may try to rewrite it at some point....but felt like I needed to put something more on here....I realize this may be asking for a lot and will eliminate quite a few but I guess that is the point....Hopefully it will bring that one I am in search of closer...=)

Thanks for reading and Have a wonderful day....

Just a note....Profiles with pics preferred....You know what I look like....I would appreciate the same....as I stated above....Attraction or Chemistry is important and I don't want to hurt anyones feelings....