I am a very fortunate person. I have great friends, I love my job, I'm very passionate, an artist, loving and optimistic and I'm trying to live an extraordinary life. Everything seems to be going for me. I am doing all the things I dream about doing. In fact, if my friends knew that I opened an account on a dating site, they'd laugh in disbelief (I might just let them think I was kidding). There is something missing here though.

The truth is, I am completely lonely. It's been years since my last great relationship and as time passes I long for that truly special person. The spontaneous romance and the comfortable monotony of a relationship, I actually crave both. All of my experiences and triumphs are starting to seem selfish not having that person around to share them with and be proud and supportive of. It's really hard to meet people these days. Anyone else feeling like that? So often, I wonder about how we just pass each other, like ships in the night, at the bar or at our parties or on the subway on the street and at the coffee shop. It doesn't seem right. It doesn't seem natural. People are so guarded too and it never seems to be the right time. They're on their way into or out of a relationship. They need time to figure things out for themselves, figure out who they are, or, maybe it's me. Maybe I'm guarded and unapproachable, intimidating or just not their type, maybe I'm actually a horrible jerk (yeah thought about that one too). This whole thing just seems like such a lottery.

I think people just expect me to already be in a relationship or to know how to date successfully or that I'm charming and have things under control but I clearly have no idea what I'm doing. So I put it to you. Are you out there feeling exactly the same? Are we going crazy?