UPDATE: You have to be honest and respect yourself before you can be honest and respect others.

First of if you are looking for a convenience that is not me. I am not capable of a part time relationship because I love with all my heart.

Every woman wants honesty so they say, here is an example of how my honesty works. Back when I had just graduated high school my brother was engaged. We went out one night and I came over to his house the next morning, he was still not home. His fiance asked where he was to which my reply was ask the little blonde he left the bar with. Needless to say that relationship ended. I do not lie for anyone, ask what you want but don't get upset when you get the HONEST answer..........

I am an honest guy who tells it like it is. If you cant handle that oh well. Do I care how many women look at my profile, nope. Most look at the pictures and DO NOT READ the profile. I prefer quality over quantity unlike most on here. I do change my profile a lot, that is just me. I am a man who is always full of energy and life. I dance in grocery stores, do impersonations in the checkout line and help people load things in their car if they are struggling. I am the guy that would pull over and help change a flat or move debris from the road way. Not because I have to but that is just who I am. Why am I the way I am, because I love life and its daily challenges. Life is not that hard. It consists of 10% of what happens and 90% of how you react to it. As far as my life, I know where I am headed and nothing is going to stop me from owning a farm in the country with a few Arabians(horses), dogs, cats and whatever other animals stray in.

I am real and you may pinch me as proof. Too many have said I am too good to be true or I have someone write my profile. Truth is only I know how I feel deep down in my heart. Yes I am 40 years old, no children(but I have helped raise a few and have no problem with diapers), never married and still single, so what is wrong with me you ask? I am not settling, perhaps I want to marry the one I hate being away from, the woman that holds my heart, and the person that makes me feel complete. I, like many of us have had my share of bad experiences but is that any reason to give up on love? No, If you seek the heart felt love as do I then no matter what happens you believe someday it will happen. You believe that someday one special person who actually cares, respects, appreciates, trusts and most of all loves you will walk into your life. I have had it happen, a 6’2” man being brought to his knees by a 5’4” woman pulling his heart strings. It hurts like hell to lose someone from your life that you truly love no matter how they leave. We have all been through it but does that mean we have to give up on love altogether because we have been hurt. Too many times people start new relationships holding back because of pain from prior relationship. Is this truly fair to the other person who you are getting involved with? Why should we carry pain from past relationships into new ones? Are we as people that shallow to not get over the pain before moving forward? Why can people not take each other for who they are instead of what they want them to be. Why is it the so called pretty girl gets all the attention? Just because she may be more attractive on the exterior does not mean she is on the inside where it counts. I know not of the LOVE that others search but I am well aware of what I seek. and will find. Is it possible that I could love you more then any other man? Perhaps or perhaps not but I could love you like only I can for who you are. An example of the love I am searching for.

I recently moved back to Illinois after being in Maryland for three years on a government contracted job. While I was there I saw a incident that is still clear like it just happened. I was picking up a life long friend from work in Georgetown. As we left the store she managed a car pulled up and a elderly gentleman got out. He walked around the car and opened the door for a beautiful elderly woman. As she exited the car he kissed her on the cheek and said "Thank you for being my partner and wife for the best fifty years a man could ever dream". I looked at my friend and we both just lost it, yes I cried. I said to my friend "that is the love I am looking for". Her reply was have faith it will happen some day. I truly believe that it may happen someday.

About me, I live in South Elgin with a room mate who is a year younger than me. I am tired of the games and just looking to meet new people and see where it goes. I am a 6'2" Italian - Native American who weighs 265 lbs. I have a 54" chest and 23" arms with tattoos, because of this often times people misjudge me because of the so called (bad boy) look and my size. Once you get to know me you find that I am just a big teddy bear.My longest relationship was 6 years and I have been engaged once. I have dated single moms and understand that with dating the mother her children become part of your life. I also know I am not the childs father and do not try to take their place. I would do anything for anybody and love helping people and showing I care. I think too many times women believe they should be pursued or chased. Maybe that is the problem. I am not going to chase someone that does not show an interest. I believe if someone wants me in their life I should feel it and not be just a convenience. Just a bad way to start any relationship in my opinion. If you want someone let them know and if not then let them go. Why play the game leading a bunch of people on. If I ever meet a woman that actually RESPECTS, APPRECIATES and LOVES that will change.

Someday I will make love to my wife in a slow falling rain in the center of a flower meadow................

It is not where you go but the quality of the person you are with.