“So you think Love is like the Fairy Tales you learned as a little girl?” he asked suspiciously.

“With the right person, I believe it can be,” I answered softly, “I want to live happily ever after.”

“Wake up and smell the bacon frying, Chica!” my friend exclaimed, “That smell is you being burned. You need to wise up, or you are just meat for the Predators who will eat you alive. You are easy prey like this. Everyone just uses each other to get what they want. That’s how it really is. ‘Love’ is a crock of BS.”

I looked away toward the sounds of children running and playing in the park with each other and with their parents as a tear silently traced its path down my cheek. Their laughter, like music to me, still echoes faintly somewhere within.

No 'Pain-Off' Switch

I escaped from a bad relationship awhile back - he became abusive - so I'm moving slow now. I don't want to repeat that mistake again.

Lesson learned: "Never make someone a priority who has made you an option!"

Okay, I just had to get that behind me. I'm normally a positive and happy person, so don't get the wrong impression.
It's just that... the wounds are still healing.

http://sn.im/ta2

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I don't really like being put into categories, or putting a label on things, like I'm boxing it away without further thought. It's too limiting.

I just feel something inside... like I should be searching for something or someone. It's hard to explain. I just want to see if I can find synchronicity with someone out there.

Maybe it’s still too soon and I really shouldn’t be here. I don't know if I even want a relationship at all now. The friendship must come first. Sometimes I shy away - it doesn't mean I’m not interested - I just need time to get to know you, so don't rush.

I'm not your typical date. I'm not looking for the typical guy. And I'm not like other girls - I'm different somehow. Be forewarned. You may wish you had avoided me. I feel like I have a very old soul - born in the wrong time, or outside of time. It's as if I don't really belong here. I don't fit.

I identify with this girl.

http://sn.im/rq9


I am not dishonest, untrustworthy, lazy, dull, a bimbo, uncaring, dispassionate, rude, hurtful, psychotic, self-absorbed, drama-filled, abusive, hot-tempered or controlling. I am confident without being conceited, decisive without being reckless, and proud without being arrogant. I carefully consider the consequences of my thoughts, words and actions, and I take care that they do not hurt others. I never lie. I always keep my word. I take care of the people I love. I listen. I forgive.

I'm goal oriented, but I'm not all business. I like to laugh a lot. You'll be hard-pressed to catch me in a bad mood. I sing all the time, so this might bother you. I'm totally feminine, except for the occasions that require something more. I’m competitive and entrepreneurial.

Oh, yeah…I’m probably smarter than you are. You’ll have to deal with it.

I'm on the lean side because I eat a healthy balanced diet low in fat and I work out to stay in shape and keep my focus. My weight is around 105 pounds, depending. I don't think that I'm particularly good-looking, but my friends tell me that I'm attractive. I don't give this much thought, and I haven't spent a lot of time dwelling upon it. I'm clean, and I'm drug and disease free. I like to dress casually, but I'm just as comfortable in a suit or formal eveningwear.

My ideal guy has high self-esteem, intelligence, confidence, ambition, sensitivity, compassion and a certain physical attraction. He is happy, loving, mature, caring, understanding, hard working, personable, a good listener, and even a great lover. He smiles and laughs frequently. He takes care of himself and he can keep up with my energy level. He knows how to take control, but is not controlling. Never treat me like you own me or that you want to rescue me - it will push me away. He’s not too forward; sometimes sweet and shy is a good thing. Being respectful is sexy; not the sexual innuendos.

I want someone who will love me for the person I am, and nothing else. You must be honest with me – always.
I don’t care what you have, other than integrity.

I won't ask anything of you that I can't or won't deliver of myself.

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What will your verse be?

http://sn.im/zx4

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So you'll understand - I work and travel a lot, so I might not check in here that often. If I read your message and I don't reply right away, it most likely means that I'm too busy at the time. Don't get your feelings hurt, okay?

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"Uploading a Photo increases the number of emails you get by a factor of 10." (Statement on the POF website.)

I don't care about getting a lot of emails.

"Some people build walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down..."


-----------------Women--------
-------------are like apples------
---------on trees. The best ones---
-------are at the top of the tree.-----
------Most men don't want to reach---
----for the good ones because they ----
--are afraid of falling and getting hurt.----
-Instead, they just get the rotten apples--
--from the ground that aren't as good, -----
-but easy. So the apples at the top think---
-something is wrong with them, when in --
--reality, they're amazing. They just------
---have to wait for the right man to----
----- come along, the one who's-----
----------- brave enough to-------
-----------------climb all----------
-----------------the way----------
----------------to the top---------
--------------- of the tree.--------


More Pieces Of The Puzzle

The songs, lyrics, melodies and imagery are symbolic metaphors. Are you able to find the important ones?
"I'll not run, I'll not hide, this is how I feel inside."

Compelling
http://sn.im/df3

Beaten, Why for? Scream the savage fury!
http://sn.im/dp4

I was sooo there
http://sn.im/eml

Great song! Don't stop now!
http://sn.im/sc1

Yes, indeed; where is it?
http://sn.im/fc0

Hence, the Headline
http://sn.im/ru2


Fun Facts

I have a bit of an Australian accent from my mother’s homeland.

I can clearly say “Toy Boat” three times really, really fast. Can you?
(“Toyboyt” doesn’t count; nor does slow.)

I jump off cliffs and stuff for fun, in case you missed that.

I dream in color.

I don't snort when I laugh.

I think the 'Do You Have A Car?' question is funny!

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You've been through everything above and you're still with me? Hmm.
Maybe you’re ready to experience my soft, fuzzy little plaything.

http://sn.im/mf9

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http://sn.im/fd3

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I would enjoy a good conversation, and then taking it from there. The best first dates are the ones you don't plan too much. Trust your spontaneity and creativity. Some place out in the open is nice...that way we can each have the option to run away if the other is too scary. I like people with a bit of an edge, but no axe-murderers, please!

My ideal date with someone new would begin with a long walk through the Arboretum, Botanical Gardens or a park. Also, the Arts Museum or Aquarium is good. I would like the opportunity to get to know you. I'd like to hear about your interests and ideals, your children if you have any, your work, your likes and dislikes, goals and dreams. I want to learn who you are.

Sometimes it's fun to do something that neither of us has done before to go through a learning experience together. Or something we haven't done recently and we're both bad at it (I might set you up here; you just never know!); for example, say bowling, putt-putt, batting cages... somewhere we can laugh and get comfortable around one another.


Or, maybe you're up for this:

http://sn.im/bae

Love the song!
http://sn.im/nw3

I have to do this jump!
http://sn.im/wsa

Douggs is one of my inspirations. Appropriate music for me - Full On, Baby!
http://sn.im/m1a


Have you got what it takes to make the leap with me as we learn to fly together?
Don’t be afraid – I’ll be with you by your side.

Perhaps this will help you:

10 Second Wisdom

“I Must Not Fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.”

~Frank Herbert ‘Dune’
(The ‘Litany Against Fear’ is an incantation used by the Bene Gesserit to focus their minds and calm themselves in times of peril.)


"Try not. Do or do not... there is no try.” ~Yoda


"Almost everything--all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die one day is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose." ~Steve Jobs


"Achieving Life is not the equivalent of avoiding Death." ~Ayn Rand

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If you read everything here, and watched and listened to all my links, I can promise you that something has changed inside of you, if only a little. You will remember me. When you're falling asleep, you will smile as you think of me again. And you'll find me in your dreams.

“Live with Passion, Darling! Live Deliberately - Die Screaming!” ~Elaina (moi)

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http://sn.im/t9v

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