| | My opinion on love is like everything else in life, described as I see it; complex and detailed, yet insanely simply as well if you ask me. I have contemplated the notion of love for a long time, through a couple of failed attempts at finding this ever elusive romantic perfection for myself. To be perfectly frank, I'm not certain, as my headline suggests, sure if I myself believe in true, unconditional, ever lasting love existing between members of a couple. I am here partly to see if I can be convinced that it can and does, and if it does, can it be forever? I might sound cynical and perhaps that is always to be looked at as a bad thing, but I do not call it cynical at all. The world has opposed so many limits upon us though it's systems, that many may not even be able to be loved unconditionally anymore at all. Just one tiny part of a bigger theory I am working on. I one day intend to write a book, while still on this Earth, before I return to the wondrous, yet almost now forgotten place from which I came.
I am very much a modern day philosopher and a student of life. The world looks, as I have come to learn through personal experience, somewhat different to me than it does to other people in many cases. Where others it seems, see order and sense, I see a world that just doesn't even see itself for what it is at all? The world really is beautiful though and life is a fascinating experience. I believe in multiple lifetimes and certainly think I've done this humanity thing several times before. In all honesty I don;t have a job right now. One may wonder why I would come out and say that in such a profile, and it a setting where as I have come to learn, it would be a hindrance to do so. However the fact is that I don't see why it's such a hindrance in the world of love. Just one example of how things seem so different to me. I have tried a couple of times to see everything as others do, but I simply can't often get it right. I can see a point of view that differs from my own, but if it doesn't make sense, it just plain doesn't make sense, though I see it's meaning and it's appeal. Life in the physical world is all a series of lessons. Earth is truly a universal school, and thus I am a student of life. So many lessons and so little time it so often seems to complete them all. Love is a lesson I have so long put off. I have tried it few times but never really caught on to the whole idea. Why am I on this site? Hmmm... I wonder that as I write this. I suppose I wish to see what will happen to me in the world of love seekers once again. This is all for simple interest in a lot of ways.
I believe in emotion and I believe in self expression. If I am happy I smile and, if something is funny or amusing I laugh. If I am sad, I cry or frown and if something feels worthy of of my annoyance, I certainly show that it is so. Emotion is liberating. I highly recommend it to anyone who is not yet lucky enough to have rediscovered it's full potential. Expression is liberating as well. I fully believe that I would not be blessed with ideas and thoughts if I was not meant to express them. As it happens, I stutter. But I assure you, I can converse with a fair level of efficiency. As I personally see myself, I am a being of many contradictions. Kind of dumb in ways but also smart. Quiet yet conversational. Striving for more than I have, yet content to stay where I am in life, as that is the life I was granted at this time. I have moments of "normal" (which I almost always put in quotes now) and moments of eccentric behavior and thought. I am mature yet silly and immature as well.
I am seeking a certain man, but I don't know who he is yet. How after all can I know someone I have not yet met in physical form? He will be, I am certain, the non-desperate, genuinely interested fellow, who wishes truly to see me again and again after that. he will be the one who see me as ideal as i am and does not seek to change me. Yet he will also be the one who i would happily change for if I could. In short I am seeking what some would call in simple terms, a soul mate. I have thought before that I have found him, or that he had found me, but alas it was not the case. Another lesson, but did I pass or did I fail? Only time will tell. The search is narrowing however, aided by the fact that I now know what he will not be like. At the same time however, I am simply exploring the idea of love, as I explore so much in life today. I am not lonely as it is, and not sure if everyone was intended to be in pairs. I don't believe that seekers should be lonely to begin with. Only when complete within oneself, can one be complete with another.
I don't have any photos of myself up on this site because I don't see a need to. A photo can be used to judge an individual based on trivial Earthly things such as the color of ones hair or the style of their clothing and I don't feel that's a way to make a first impression upon anyone. |
