| | One day you wake up and realized life is not that difficult. Depending on your past whether you lived the rock star life, continued with your education into your 30's, had children in your teens, worked, stripped, etc. It doesn't matter. At some point in time hopefully you will realize what it is you want out of life. Of course it is constinantly changing, what you wanted at 20 is probably is not what you wanted at 30. Approaching their 40's one would hope to have a little better understanding of what long term happiness could be. But who knows we are constantly evolving. As for me 36 live alone but have lived with a few "women" over the years. I guess "women" may not be the correct term thinking back a few where girls. I've had a pretty wild life, sex and drugs without the rock n roll. But at some point a few years back I realized I was bored. Going to the same places with the same people talking the same shit. Kind of like an intoxicated groundhog day. Went extreme opposite, stayed home watched movies, read books, exhausted the internet. Not antisocial just sick of the BS. As I'm writing this I'm realizing I really don't wan't to meet anyone, I've become comfortable by myself, almost too comfortable. Do I miss that feeling I once had as a young man yearning to see that girl that I loved. Couldn't wait to get done with whatever it was just to see her, touch her, feel her breath on my neck as we slept. Yes, Yes, Yes. But it is almost 2010. Lets face it im in N.Y. its fast paced, get up, coffee+breakfast on the way to work, quick phone call on the 10 minute lunch break, commute home, gym, dinner in front of the TV, bills on the computer, I don't know what else but I'm sure you can all fill in the blanks. People just don't find the time to enjoy much at all. Yet I have actually learned to enjoy myself, guess I'm selfish and don't want to give that up. Truth is I went this site to check out a friend from Seattle's profile (I know the "I'm on here because of a friend" line). Tom's a twisted guy (but a great guy) and told me he wrote an honest discription of himself and has received alot of feedback. Tom's an interesting character so I felt the need to read that honest discription. So if you feel compelled to comment on my rambling feel free. |
