like going to show, i have 5 tattoos . 11 peircings , i love body art, i love to wreak havoc, i like to drink like the lush i am!, i smoke newports, i hate drugs, i like being randome, i prey to the god of coffee's, if i upset you it makes me happy!, i am proud of who i am! , i have never broken a bone, love is over rated not the emotion just the word THIS IS HOW I'M WIRED. I am DEEPER than you think. If you would like to contradict me, I'm game. I can most likely figure you out within 5 minutes of having a conversation with you. I hunger to be an obstruction of your mind. I thirst for you to figure me out. You have now entered my masquerade. You can uncover your facade. I believe myself to be genuine and I would never betray the ones I love. I value my family and those who are REAL. I like to be fascinated by the anomalous. I am constantly thinking and I love to write poetry. I have Loved... Lost... and Learned. The three things that every soul should feel. I yearn for those that put a smile on my face. I crave for the one that will give to me what I will give back. I do not belong in anyone's Virus. Satisifaction is found on my own. Don't Lust for what you See... Desire what you know. if you wanna talk im me on aim @ simplysublimetlc or you can check out my my space page www.my space.com/tashels

I HAVE BEEN HURT! MANY TIMES SO I HAVE TO ASK.. YOU MUST USE KID GLOVES WITH ME UNTILL I FEEL CONFORTIBLE!
i am easy to get along with. i enjoy getting to know people.. and i truly love people and i'm honest to a fault

i'm new at all of this i have had a hard life.. made lots of mistakes but my eyes and heart are open now and i don not intend of making the same mistakes again i want a new tattoo... so that would be hella cool first date

just something i wrote:

i am the backg round to this place ,

the quietobser ver,

a camera to this picture,

here to been seen but not heard ...

i have seen so many things in my life, although most of them bad, i accept the cards i have been dealt and realize the could always be worse .



i have watched people love their family and in return their family's love them back unconditionally , sharing a bound with each other while providing comfort and support, something completely unknown to me.



i accept the fact that when i start to become close to someone i sabotage it, making them feel uncomfortable, as a warning "run away while you still can" forcing most of them to leave . protection on my part i guess ....

only because i know that every one i meet will eventually let me down. the ones that stay well. .... ( only for a period of time) have been infected their lives destroyed. i would let them speak for them self but they are all gone by now and refuse to speak to me.



as i sit back in my chair watching the things that are going on around me.. seeing the world change but not the people.



i try to understand the hatred i feel for others and also myself, mostly because i was born into this life. . made to be a thief , a whore and the Mother of lies. unintentionally ruining every one i make contact with. things that no amoun t of self loathing can change (for i have tried ) these things that have been carved into me like a scar i cannot remove, have been the only thing s that i can truly count on.



cause every one you meet will eventually leave , someone you know now will turn into someone you once knew, (and in my case) someone you loved will turn into someone who despises you..

so i am accepting it for what it is. .....