Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can.


A little piece of a poem written for me, about me~~~

....Her silken skein contains your soul,
without her there your life's not whole.
Her love can kill, drives men insane,
Her words it seems, are never plain.
Hidden meanings, Wicked Plans, Dark Desires,
Not her man's.....


I am not actively seeking a relationship. I have met some really awesome friends through this site and I am hanging out here for my friends and the forums. They are sometimes thought provoking, sometimes hilarious, occasionally make me fear the loss of IQ points (not just talkin' about the forums!). I am here to encounter new people and enjoy serious or silly friendships. I am not opposed to a romantic entanglement, but am not on the prowl for my next ex ~~ if it happens I do love the fireworks and am willing to put away the little black book for the right person!

I rarely respond to "copy and paste" intro messages. I prefer some creativity, some sort of indication that you have actually read my profile.

I like who I am, where I'm at in life and the direction I'm headed in. Does that sound arrogant? Perhaps a bit. Am I perfect?? Hell no! I am a fantastically imperfect being, but I love my flaws! I have been referred to as an arrogant b!tch, when I am called that in reference to my standing up for my beliefs or point of view, I laugh and take it as something of a compliment. I am most often attracted to other passionate, intelligent, intense, occasionally stubborn people for my more meaningful friendships and romantic interests. While we may have differing views on some things, we are (hopefully) mature enough to deal with our disagreements in a (mostly) adult manner. I am passionate about all aspects of my life and my emotions, freely sharing all that is me with people who I consider close.

My interests are varied and a tad eclectic. My CD collection contains everything from Bach to Nickelback to Sepultura and my DVD collection is equally varied but is short on chick flicks. I have read Homer's works several times. think Nietzsche, while not a happy, fluffy fellow, is interesting to study. I usually have about six different books going at once and it is a rare thing for me to be able to sit still through a movie at home. I am a people watcher and do enjoy inserting myself into others' lifes for my amusement and their later contemplation.

Be yourself. You are so beautiful. Never before in creation has there been anyone exactly like you. You are unique in the whole universe ~~ what could be more beautiful than that?

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I will attempt to answer some of the most frequent questions I get asked from others who have read my offerings....

~Yes, I really am bisexual
~No, that doesn't mean you get a threesome
~Yes, I have a dark and twisted kinky side
~No, that doesn't mean you can spank me (why sir, I hardly know you!)
~Yes, I do have an almost 20 year old son and a gorgeous new grandson
~Thank you, I know I don't look old enough to be the gorgeous monster's mother, let alone a Grandma
~Yes, I am fairly b!tchy and judgemental when I think you are being an ass and it is or will affect your kids
~No, I'm not going to apologize so put on your big girl (or boy) panties and deal with it
~Yes, I really am that sarcastic in real life, if not more so
~Yes, I actually was raised a Mormon 'til I was twelve, now I really and truly am a Pagan
~No, my favorite show is not Charmed
~No, I really do not do drugs
~Yes, I have in the past
~I don't drink often, but when I do my favorite alcoholic drinks are: Tequila shots, Tequila Sunrises, shots of Firewater liberally dowsed with Tabasco, and slushy Blackberry Merlot
~Yes, I know smoking is a nasty and filthy habit
~No, I am not going to quit smoking
~Yes, I really am that annoyingly cheerful, unless I get pissed off
~Yes, I really do find Vincent D'Onofrio sexy (quit laughing!!)
~Yep, I'm the geeky girl who likes sci-fi
~And I'm the goth princess who adores dark, macabre and creepy
~The nerdy brain who likes to be analytical?? Ummmmmm, yeah, that's me too
~The neighborhood Mom?? *raises hand*
~I've gone hunting, killed Bambi's relatives, but won't squish a spider (hey! I like spiders!)
~Yeppers, they do let people like me volunteer with youth
~Nope, I don't think you're ever too old to be pierced
~Yes, there are piercings that just don't work on more ummmm "mature" folk
~Tattoos are gorgeous on the right skin
~I'm not gonna drool over your new ink if it is the exact same thing 750 other people have
~I do happen to ride quads like a girl ~ hard and fast.... if you're bruised and a bit bloodied but can still walk, it was a good ride!!

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Some of the oft-repeated questions from the forums that drive me stupid, and my answers...

Question ~Why won't men/women date a person who is fat/thin/tall/short/bald/has long hair/too intelligent/not smart enough/plays video games/does extreme sports/whatever??

Answer ~They will. They do. Take a look around. It's not because of what you posted about, it's because you are whining that you can't get a date!!

Question ~Why do women/men always use me??

Answer ~Because you allow them too. Quit doing whatever it is you do to attract losers.

Question ~Do women/men like (fill in the blank)??

Answer ~Yes. Absolutely. We are all cookie cutter renditions of the same person and blanket generalizations always work.

Question ~What will he/she do/say if I do/ask (fill in the blank)??

Answer ~For god's sake, how the hell are a bunch of strangers supposed to know?!?!?! Here's a novel idea ~~ do/ask whatever you are obsessing about to the object of your obsession and fill us in later.

Question ~Why does no one respond to my emails??

Answer ~Because they don't want to. We did not sign a contract promising to play nice or answer every message to hit our inboxes.

And for those of you here that get discouraged at the futility of it all, please remember that it's always darkest just before it goes pitch black

We could sit on a mountaintop lobbing rocks at the masses below, creating a landslide and helping with IQ-challenged-population-control followed by some drive-by pointing and laughing at total strangers. Who doesn't love making people neurotic?? We could finish the evening with some matching body modifications and take pictures of each other's "holy shit! that hurts!" faces as we are being willingly pierced or inked.

Some of the better first dates/encounters I have experienced have included ~~ my first trip to Sturgis; camping in the snow (thank gawd for wall tents with wood stoves!!); going to the Freak Show in Portland for the first time, getting "the works" at a spa with a great guy who willingly endured a body wrap at my suggestion; cooking dinner with a new guy at his place; a day on the sno-cats followed by a wonderful evening with a great bottle of wine and a beautiful fire in a secluded cabin; a jacuzzi suite and a wonderfully exciting younger man who absolutely enchanted me; a midnight matinee at The Rocky Horror Picture Show dressed in costumes and fully armed with rice, toilet paper, etc.... You Men are great if given a chance to show your more creative sides!

How 'bout we grab a change of clothes, call in dead and head to the Oregon coast? Stop at the Portland zoo, feed the inmates, buy overpriced trinkets. Hit all the Starbucks between here and the ocean. Let me show you the little cove I love that is only accessible when the tide is out. Listen to the waves crash in the darkness, lick the salt spray from our lips and hope for a storm to roll in. When the sun comes up we can play tourist and do all those horribly cheesy things people do while on vacation.

The past is over ~ there are no plans you can make for it. The future is unknown ~ plan for it and undoubtedly your plans will change. This moment is all that exists. Why plan for it when you can live it?