About me?
I think the best thing I have going for me is balance;
I am soft without being a pushover, intelligent without being condescending, sexy without giving up my self respect and assertive and self-confidant without being a bit*ch. I'm not the least bit self absorbed or co*cky, but I AM a woman who knows her own worth. I'm comfortable in my own skin, and... if given the choice to be anyone in the world I wanted to be... I'd continue being me.
What makes me unique?
More than a few things, but the most relevant of which are the following;
I was raised with a great deal of masculine influence. By and large... I think like a man, even as I revel in being female. I'm straightforward, upfront, and I tolerate no bullshyt or disrespect from anyone. Nothing that you think you know about women will apply to me... but that's OK. If you want to know what I like, what I want, or what I'm thinking or almost anything else,... all you need do is ask :)
I made the choice a long time ago to live (within the bounds of my responsibilities to my children and my environment) to please only myself.
I may well be the happiest person you've spoken to in a while. Not because I'm naive or blinded by optimism, but because I've CHOSEN to be happy. I'm living life on my own terms, and loving it.
Be warned that I am not a perfect woman. I'm amused by nearly everything,my wit can wreak havoc on the pretentious and the condescending, I'm painfully impatient, I can only function through my personal chaos with the use of post-it-notes and jedi mind tricks, my attitude(and ability to see to the heart of people very easily)can be very intimidating, and while I'm very active, energized, and healthy... I'm probably 40 lbs. overweight as of this writing.
About the weight?
I'm in the gym a minimum of 3 days a week these days... but that's because being active makes me feel good. If the lbs. continue to come off, they do, if they don't... no big deal. I think I'm pretty damned hot as is when the entire package is considered.;)
There is a REASON why there are no hit songs dedicated to teeny little butts :D
I don't write this because I am apologetic or self deprecating, but because I want to represent what I am honestly.
If slender is a pre-requisite for you in a woman, I understand completely... just don't waste my time if that's your preference.
Who I'm looking for?
I'll let the poet Uriah Mountain Dreamer speak for me.
The Invitation
Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to
be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can
disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, 'Yes.'
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
It doesn't matter, as long as it's a low stress, casual meeting where we can feel free to talk and get to know each other a little better.
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