This make take awhile,
To start with I'm not a whiz on this keyboard' itself and I are not as of yet the best of friends, and I do believe very much in friendships. So if you see comma's periods e.t.c in the wrong places...I'm sorry" --it happens! But give me a napkin and a pen :) I'll explain that one later.
I was born and raised in Fl and with the exception of living in two neighboring towns I've remained in this area throughout my life. New York is the biggest city I've been in' and went there to see a concert....a band called (YES) have you heard of them? I grew up listening to rock, what is referred to now as classic' yeah! that's a damper on the age aspect'I enjoy music and how certain songs can take you back to a memory and or a time in life. There is a lot of good types of tunes however not a big fan of Heavy or Rapp.

I have never seen snow'besides on t.v or in a picture. I do have an unconditional love for the water, and have been in on around or near it all my life' I have a Captains License and I'm a diver. The Keys are great and used to go there at least once a year, if you have never been it's worth going and there is a high speed ferry that departs Ft Myers and docks at Key West' 3 1/2 hrs of enjoyment on waves and your there" No! that's not a plug and I have no afilliation with that boat' simply think it's a good time...sorry' great time! There's a segway :) Good time"stuff to do, things that are fun, what brings out a smile? To start with and I firmly believe this...and simply put' it's not what your doing it's who your with" I could be setting on a bench starring at a drab blank wall, however if I was with good company and they were ok with me' I would be f i n e fine' yet on the other side of the coin? Things I enjoy' well, water and anything associated with it....the beach' frissbee, volleyball, building stuff in the sand....I make a great shark' skiing, tubing, floating....whether it be in a pool or on a river, fishing, island hopping, snorkeling, diving, there's a few anyway with water invovled.

Other stuff I enjoy....... Barbque's, road trips, concerts, comedy clubs, parks, rain, good movies, a good joke, good conversation, good sex....it's been a while so any would be good' helping people, smiles, friendship, learning, hugs, riding a bike, riding a bike in the rain, watching a storm approach, seeing the expression on someone's face after they did something they didn't think they could do, cooking, fixing up my house, fixing up friends homes, exercise, hearing a good joke, spooning, being able to confide in someone, new adventures, being in love, talking around a campfire, sticking tape to a cat's paw or paws and watching them go! think what you will...but it's funny" and is doesn't hurt......I love animals and have stopped many times to help one.There's so much more and I'll come back to this but I'm getting sidetracted.

I'm not on here looking for someone to take care of me nor to get laid' have never had a one nighter and doubt I ever will, although at times I get lonely and it would be nice to simply hold somebody.This is basicly one of my only alternatives in meeting someone' I simply can't approach women out in public or life in general and introduce myself or start a conversation'I wish I could! believe me I do, yet I can't. Once I get to know and feel a mutual connection with someone the shyness subsides.I don't have children of my own yet helped raise others and enjoyed it' still have a lot of kid in me. There are those who can go through life alone and be happy and fulfilled' unfortunately I'm not one of them, it may sound weak or immature however I need someone in my life to feel complete and truly happy. Don't misunderstand....I'm content and wear a smile from day to day and although I am alone I do have a possitive outlook and do realize just how lucky I am' yet I know in my heart something is missing and that's why I'm here.

As far as who I would like to find' it doesn't matter to me what she does or has...who she is as a person is what's important. I don't believe in relationships when you feel the need to change someone,I have no problem changing my outside looks'hair,clothes e.t.c] however someone that takes me for who I am and I her, knowing that this is the person that I am meant to be with. It's not easy to find such a thing, is it possible? A feeling which would paralell bliss
I see someone I've seen before in my dreams' she doesn't have a name nor am I fully aware of what she looks like. I know she's there because I feel her overwhelming love' a love I have never felt and didn't think was possible. Her smile is one of beauty that is brought forth from within her soul and shines endlessly thru her eyes, I can smell her fragrence although she may be miles away. Have you ever loved someone so much you want to melt into their skin.... I would like to.......I can see her yet she's not there'


As far as the napkins thing this is one of them, I started writing on them a while ago but won't go into the whole how it came about part'this is long enough and actually if you have made it this far I'm supprised....anyway, this one wasn't about a relationship' it's about something else. But it is from a napkin :)

she keeps a conversation piece
just beside her chair
never worried about politics
seldom bothered by her hair

distant thoughts are echoing
like the sound of avolanch bouncing off of canyon walls
always listening to her friends
returning all their calls

to much time is taken up
by things that shouldn't be
when you find your out of thoughts
simply think of me

tomorrows are uncounted yesterdays
they never seem the same
if you let go now it's ok
we won't forget your name

she keeps a conversation piece
just beside her chair
the sun is rising once again
to greet the warming air

you once spoke of a day gone by
when a piece of time stood still
you were all alone yet not by yourself
walking passed an unseen hill

you dropped your smile your love your soul
and watched them hit the ground
only wanting to return to home
where no one was around

then you saw a footprint
surrounded by silver leaves
a question came from beyond
do you still believe

pausing for a moment
then reaching down towards the snow
picking up what you dropped
and a silver leaf that helped you grow

she keeps a conversation piece
just beside her chair
it reminds her when she feels all alone
someone is always there
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I think the 1rst date is more of a meeting...... and if it goes well the 2nd meeting would be the 1rst date' still with me? The first time I meet someone I believe we are both there for a reason' actually a few. To see if we enjoy each others company and if we feel comfortable with with one another. If we think their a good person' honest,nice,caring sense of humor e.t.c, and if were attracted to to each other .....Attraction is an important aspect in relationship but I feel thats from the way you see a person, the whole person' inside and out. Anyway, the 1rst meeting??? somewhere we can talk' get to know one another, so both can tell if there is something there" something inside that tells you I want to see this person again, If both feel that way....then that's what it's about'

Female
Age between 38 and 53
Live in United States
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Must not be looking for Other Relationship
Must not be looking for Intimate Encounter
Must not do drugs
Must not be married