i am a 53year old widow for 13years now, my husband died of cancer, i have 3 girls and a stepdaugter and 5 grandchildren. all are on there own except for my 17 1/2 year old. i am not sure exactly what kind of relationship i am looking for. i do know that i believe in trust and honesty. i dont like players or users or liers. i would like to meet someone that is interested in starting out talking and getting to know each other as friends and see where it leads from there, maybe going out together after we have talked for awhile online and maybe on the phone later on. i love to read horror, true crime and suspense thrillers, i am currently unemployed, i just moved to the illinois area about 1year ago to be closer to my friend that is like a sister to me. i believe there has to be strong communication to make a relationship of any kind work and last. oh and i am an old fashion type of person and have strong morals. i believe beauty is only skin deep and in the eyes of the beholder. i dont look for outside beauty i look for the beauty that is inside of someone cause that is who that person is not what they look like on the outside.

i think dinner would be nice for a first meeting and date, looking across the table at one another talking face to face after all the eyes are the windows to the persons soul.