Hi

(January 2006)
I have no ideea who I am. I had a few relations in my life and one even lasted for 8 years but honestly I don't get it. They all ended ... Well I still do belive in the perfect girl (the perfect girl for me) but f... its hard to find her. At some point in time I even wondered if I was gay. Well guys NO I AM NOT. So don't bother. No I don't drive y'r way and no I don't take u in my truck

enough for now. I will update this part tomorrow

So yeah I think I am at that stage where I have made many changes in my life but not yet quite sure what I am looking for.... wash !!! I sound depressing

(May 2006)
OK! Time for a small update. I think I know what I want. Since I am this crazy guy driving a truck for weeks at a time, without even carying about the rest of the world... God I wish I met a girl who would like the same thing. Any ways I don't think that kind of girl exists... so I put a bemol there. Not a trucker girl. Any ways trucker girls don't have boy friends, but someone steady. And YEAH SOMEONE WHO WOULD HAVE THE CURRAGE TO FOLLOW ME ON A ONE MONTH TRIP! You girls are so chicken about leaving the comfort of u'r home :))

Enough for now. I'm sure I will need to update this later. U know ... I'm an evolving person :)

better do this tomorrow

October 2006 - 3 girl friends later

Well I think it is all my fault. Honestly never met someone on this site. Guess girls around here are not lonely enough. So can someone tell me why I only find controlling or depending girls? Please tell me there are other options. Please tell me that there are still girls in this world that crave a relation based on equality.

Or at least tell me "Hey little boy.... cause u know u r still a boy :P. Grow up and then u will find the person u r looking for!"

Any ways I don't think that I will even find that girl cause u r usually not only chicks but chicken :P

So decision taken! I will just take some time to grow a little. Like do really good stuff for me. U know .... Stop smoking... Start training... maybe gain some weight (in the right way) and we will see after.

So take care girls for a little while.

P.S. Hey at least I learned something about myself: I'm a good lover

(October 30 2006)

First of all I am not a smoker any more :D! Well been two weeks and **** it is hard! If u wonder .... yes I cheated 3 times in those 2 weeks but what the hell! I will not say that I smoke occasionally just because of that! I really wanted to stop and I did. Now it si just a question of staying this way!

Besides that.... Hey anyone realised how hard it is to leave for himself? There are no thank-yous there are less smiles there are diffrent friends! Very interesting experience! Especially for a guy who is used to be way too ****ing nice :D

So the perfect first date as I see it now. Well I guess we never met so it would be kind of hard for both of us. Usually we go to dates with people we know from work, from school or whatever. So it is kind of a semi-blind date, cause we only have spoken on chat, im and phone.

So any ways we decide to go for coffee. I think coffee is a good ideea. We get to talk a little. Just enough to see if what we belived while talking on the net and on the phone still stands. Then it depends is it 0F outside or 83F. In anycase some exercice would be nice. So walking, skating, rollerblading would be nice. Finally dinner. A nice small restaurant with good food. Good night kiss unless we are in the mood for dancing and drinking.

October 2006 - A little bit more experience :))
Short!!!! Coffee or icecream. Not planned. Just enough to create the chemistry. Any ways what serious girl would go further on a first date. Just be funny (me) just be yourself (you)