AFTER BEING MARRIED FOR OVER 20 YEARS I NOW FIND MYSELF SINGLE ONCE AGAIN. A LOT OF THINGS HAVE CHANGED SINCE THE 80'S BUT I SEE THE GAMES ARE STILL THE SAME. I REALIZE THAT A LOT OF WOMEN HAVE BEEN ABUSED AND MISTREATED BY A FAMILY MEMBER, NEIGHBOR, MAN OR THE MEN IN THEIR LIFE AND I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO SAY IM SORRY. SORRY FOR EVERY TEAR THAT HAS FALLEN FROM YOUR EYES,SORRY FOR EVERY BROKEN PROMISE THAT HAVE BEEN MADE TO YOU,SORRY FOR EVERY WOUND YOU HAVE SUFFERED AND EVERY BROKEN OR ABANDONED HOME YOU HAVE BEEN LEFT TO MAINTAIN. REALIZING THAT I AM NOT THE ONE THAT HAS DONE THIS TO YOU I WOULD LIKE TO JUST SAY FROM A MAN'S HEART TO A WOMAN'S I AM TRULY SORRY THAT YOU HAVE HAD TO ENDURE THIS. AS FOR LOVE I FEEL IT CAN BE FOUND ANYWHERE EVEN ONLINE IF TWO PEOPLE ARE AT THE SAME PLACE IN THEIR LIVES. I THINK A LOT OF US GET STUCK AFTER WE HAVE RAISED OR PLANNED TO RAISE A FAMILY WITH THE ONE WE FELL IN LOVE WITH AND WHEN THAT IS NO LONGER A REALITY WE DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT GOALS TO SET WITH THE NEW LOVE OF OUR LIFE SO THINGS KIND OF FIZZLE OUT. I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO GROW OLD WITH, TO CUDDLE WITH, TO GIVE THE MATURE YEARS OF MY LOVE AND LIFE TO. TO ME A MAN SHOULD BE AS A KING SEARCHING FOR HIS QUEEN, A KNIGHT SEARCHING FOR HIS DAMSEL IN DISTRESS OR EVEN AS ADAM SEARCHING FOR HIS EVE. I WISH YOU WELL IN YOUR JOURNEY TO FIND LOVE AND HAPPINESS BUT KNOW THIS THAT IT ALL STARTS WITHIN YOURSELF FOR IF YOU ARE HAPPY THERE THEN YOU CAN MAKE SOMEONE ELSE HAPPY. I AM IN THE PROCESS OF PUBLISHING MY FIRST BOOK MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY ENTITLED "A MAN AMONG MEN" I WILL KEEP THOSE INTERESTED UPDATED AS TO WHEN IT WILL BE AVAILABLE IN STORES. REMEMBER TO BE CONTENT WITH BEING ALONE MEANS YOUR CONTENT WITH NOT FULFILLING GOD'S DIVINE WILL WHICH IS FOR A MAN TO LEAVE HIS FATHER AND MOTHER AND CLING UNTO HIS WIFE AND THE TWO OF YOU SHOULD BECOME ONE.