Brain Candy
Who am I? © 2008
I think--a lot. I think about things, big, small, important, irrelevant and irreverent. If I have questions, I keep thinking, discussing, asking and wondering about them until I have an answer supportable to my standards; then I file them away (most often in my gut because my brain is full and unpredictable, while my gut rarely fails me).

I care--too much. I care about freedom, injustice, people, our country, our world, our universe, the sanctity of life, informed free choice, truth, honor and how short our time here really is. Sometimes my caring brings tears, for both good and bad, and occasionally, it brings out the muse in me.

I believe--in science and nature, having given up religion at age six, when it asked too much of me. No bandwagon, gobbledygook or glib phrase can woo me, except that of an occasional man. I do not yet have an answer to whether there is an afterlife or a god and have left the question open and pending; Yet, while I have not one iota of blind faith, I am a good person, filled with hope, joy, wisdom and love.

I dream--as we all do, of all that I have and all that I yearn for. I yearn now for the warmth, comfort , love and security, and the arms of that man who can make it so. And I dream that my freedom to be me remains unfetterd and unbroken by convention or control, as freedom to be you should be.

I am different--and atypical, and have been so all my life. Even in newyorkcity, where I spent most of my life, I was so. My drum beats are unique to me, as are my thoughts and beliefs. We have choices in life to conform or be unique for which we pay the price or reap the benefits.

I am wise--and spontaneous, unpredictable, provocative, creative, rational, logical and in some ways extraordinary. I live in the now, ever since I found it. I listened, experienced, learned and am unafraid of life, afraid to die without having experienced life, I have wisdom to share and share it freely. And I have my heart to give.

The man that wins my heart will respond to the above.
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Home© 2007
I want to see only you.
I want to know you might want only me, as much as I might you.
I want to know you, share me with you and explore an "us".
I want to know that you'll be there for me, delivering what you say.

I want your monogamy, your thoughts, your time intertwined with mine.
I want you to come to me, bare your soul, not be afraid or run away.
I want to know your vulnerabilities and salve your wounds,
Knowing that I could never hurt you.

I want to know your joys and pleasures,
Feel your breath against my neck and your body secure against mine.
I want to run away with you, wherever it may take me,
But I don't want to pay with my soul.

If you're as real as I want you to be...come to me.
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Loved and lost? Yes, I have been hurt, but I have also loved and been loved to love's deepest depths. It is a part of the process and the risk of true love. The ying and the yang. The weak run from the fear of being hurt--again. The strong return, the lure overcoming the fear. It is a worthy and worthwhile risk that has made me the wise, dynamic, knowledgeable, intuitive, sensual and provocative woman you may have the opportunity to know.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about how two people can get together at this time and stage of life and why, after the fading of the bright beginnings of internet dating, many of us are still without the companions and mates we seek.

We've lived most of our lives (hey, 100 years ago, most of us would be dead at our age). We've had our children and built our careers yet, so many of us are trying to find someone that stirs our hearts and souls in the same way as when we were much younger and innocent. Others have so much baggage, they are looking for nothing less than the idealistic. And so any of us have realized over time that It won't happen; it's just very different in this time and at this age. We've lost our innocence and most of us are too obsessed with seeking to repeat our greatest life experiences and avoiding anything connected with our bad experiences. It so coats our vision and our thoughts, we've lost sight of what we are really looking for. Although I still keep trying, I keep trying to understand.

What are we really looking for? Tell me you thoughts. I'd love to read them.

We will know.........

©2008
I hear your call and smile.
I see your face and warm.
I hold you close and sigh…
I am home.

Kiss me softly, then hard.
Bend my mind and my heart,
With sweet words and warmth
Loose my control and my fire,

And you will never lose my love.

If you are curious to know more about me, you can check out another profile of mine on Match.com where I am "wildflowerstill" or Yahoo.com where I am "Wildflower".