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but i am basically a uniquely self-centered person(who often cannot spell)
i could say that i am comitted above all else to honesty - but that is just an arrogant way of saying that i give myself permission to be a complete **stard...
so i am ultimately looking for someone very similar - no one else is very interesting and no one else is going to put up with me
or maybe i need rescuing from the mundane but subtly traumatic nature of normal society.
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When I went round to my X and met a very good friend - "andi" she said "you have such an extraordinarily sharp mind and you are so clever at sorting out other people's problems, but i have to say you are really ****ed up yourself..you don't even feed yourself properly or have any of the fundamentals of your own life sorted out..
I then proudly revealed my profile here...
"No..." she said "writing all that much makes you look entirely anal ..women don't want a man that far up his own a*** who hasn't got any time to take an interest in them.." Oh **** i thought that is the problem - i am totally up my own a***.
she and my X then read out different bits in horror and incredulity...and then we were all rolling about on the floor in hysterics..
Then it came to me....that is exactly what i want from a relationship - a woman who understands exactly what sort of an a***hole i am and is then happy to simply laugh - for that she will earn my undying love.

people find that it is my profound imperfections that make me interesting...
And for me it is a woman's imperfections that can fascinate me...
But what is infinitely more important to me is that a woman none the less feels good about being hersef, has the courage to as best as she can say what she thinks and how she feels, and do what she wants. I'm am not necessarily looking for a woman remotely as eccentric as myself, just someone who is not afraid of being honest, someone who is not afraid of hurting my feelings but would feel ashamed if she in anyway deceived me...

About myself - Think of Lenny Bruce stalking the stage, terrifying and delighting his audience in equal measure. Now imagine he is a lapsed catholic instead of a jew (that should be easy to do). Then imagine that entirely instead of drugs, he has sentimental feelings towards animals. Imagine William Blake playing the role of the hero in a rather excellent low budget spaghetti western - but with no clue of how to approach women. If you can imagine all that, you will then have a very clear picture of who i am...But the real challenge is to work out what i might have to offer you?

I am deeply conservative and yet always exasperated by convention.
i appolagised to my stepson last weekend for being as overbaring and critical as i was with him in the past...Fortunately he did grow up like me apart from his amazing sense of humour - he was very magnaminious - he said anything that does not kill you makes you stronger...............

what i would like to do for a first date is probably not what most women would like or expect...I find first dates difficult/stressful - probably like everyone else..but i most especially find small talk difficult.
So here are my ideas so that you can come up with something better.
First and most obvious to me if you are the same as me and just coming out of hybernation would be to get into bed together, hold hands and then go to sleep..or if the mood took us share our deepest feelings about the meaning of life, the universe and what we needed from it all.
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If you are madly competitive we could meet at the anchor pub in cambridge for a game of scrabble..it would help if you get really upset when you lose so that you try all the harder to win the next time..or if you win it will be a lot more fun if you make me kiss your toes
OR
We could wrap up very warm, meet at the anchor pub in and go for a walk by the river with a bottle of wine and a candle and then lie down on the grass, look up at the stars and explore our feelings about the universe and the meaning of everything.
Or
if you would one day like to tell your grand children how you saved the whale, we could go to the Toyata showroom at Cherryhinton and discus ecology with their customers - actually even if you are looking for an intimate relationship with an entirely different sort of man we could do this..
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We could dress up as english eccentric, find a terraced street in cambridge, and spend the afternoon stroking everyones cats that would be about...Then celebrate in a nice pub after.
we could do what ever really turns on and excites you the most.