So I'm up on the "pof" podium. "plenty of fish heads awards." This is where I acknowledge the selfish mistakes I've made over the years and pay homage to those responsible for saving me from Darwinism. Hi, I'd like to thank a few people here. I'd like to thank my family Counselor. My Spiritual advisor. My mental health practicioner. My family doctor. The medicine woman who gave me that un-named herbal remedy at the truck stop. Thank-you to my psycho-therapist, psychologist. Thank-you to my pharmacist, guidance counselor and the homeless guy that gave me the unidentified pills. Thank-you to my sensei(wax on, wax off)and last but not least my Reiki master. Ha (tongue in cheek humour) You either get me or you don't!

Okay just to clarify a few things here. I didn't pick a "fish personality" because (Sperm Whale) wasn't an option. I've been seperated for THREE years now. I share no assets or children with my former. We were only married for FOUR months. We've not spoke in TWO years now. Why have I not divorced? Sometimes things that cause me stress make me digress so I avoid them all together. I'd hope that I not be judged on that fact. I feel the need to be forthcoming about this topic due to the fact that I recently "miscommunicated" with someone whom captivated my mind and garnished my authentic respect. It came back to bite me in the ass. I wish not repeat the same mistake twice. "experience is what you get when you don't get what you wanted." I'm now more "experienced." The profile says "Aries" but I'm a Taurus. I'm a bull personified. I'm also 33 not 34. Pof would not let me correct my info! I believe I've left no stone unturned here.

Sweet hammer of the gods this sucks!

I recall when I found out about a distant relative meeting and dating a person that she'd met online and I simply could not get my head around the idea. It's so ironic at how ubiquitous the online engangement has become. Here I am staring into this damned screen.

About me;

I'm shy, pragmatic,and at times morose. I CAN be insecure one moment and wallow in feelings of inferiority or feel masculine, potent and emboldened, With desires to roar like a lion as I attempt to conquer the world the next. I'm extremely strong willed. It will take a strong willed, determined, understanding and assertive gal to tame this wild pony. If you get to KNOW me and UNDERSTAND me then you'll know when we have an argument and I give you that tough guy look and smile, deep down inside it's probably cutting me like a knife. If I try to push you away, I'm problably hoping you'll pull me near and reassure me things are okay. I'm human. I don't always show my weakness but I feel and feel deeply. I care and care deeply. When you've invested the time in me, you'll see the soft tender, compassionate, sensitive and endearing guy that I am.

I'm not a mans man or romeo of the poetic world. I don't share space with any elitists, nor am I a self professed jock of the sports world. I'm just a humble, small town boy with simple pleasures. I STRIVE to embetter myself on a regular basis; mentally, physically and spiritually. I guess you could say the road to nowhere leads to me. LOL. It's all apart of my flawed design.


Smile inducers include;

Humour, sincerity, honesty, charm, ability to laugh at oneself, great communication skills, a strong moral compass, sensitivity, sensuality, a nice smile.

Smile reducers include;

Smoking, drug use, poor grammar, pretention, dishonesty, head games, vanity, laziness, poor hygiene, cookie cutter syndrome-(being like the Jones')

I'm attracted to humble people. I value the need to be "progressive" and I value quality but I detest the word "hip."

There are two types of people in the world. The "hip" type. Hip people try to impress from the outside. They whoa us with their exterior facade, chasing the latest fashion. I'm more impressed and attracted to earnest people. Pretention often follows closely with hip. Earnestness comes from the core. Its virtues grounding those that it bestows. Your designer jeans and prada purse won't impress me. Your pretty little sports car and house in the suburbs with white picket fences won't do much either. Show me your trueness. A heart of gold. Compassion enough to silence a room full of crying children. Strong family values. Tenacity to fight for what you want. Sincerety and discipline to keep the things you've attained. That is what will impress me.

"INDOMITABLE-There are men who, when they see a mountain, they desire to climb it. The mountain is in their blood. As long as they are away their legs remain restless, their desire unconquerable. When they go to meet it, they leave everything back. They keep the baggage of society behind and carry on that which they need. Instead of convenience and comfort that dulls, they'll sharpen their wits and rely on their instincts. I am like these men and consider myself amoung them. I too have something in my blood. It is stone cold iron. When I'm in this place choice vanishes. I need to feel the cold steel in my hands. I want to lift it. Destroy and shatter it. Like them, I only have what I need and nothing else-my will, this fortitude and these rough and callused hands. What more would I require? Nothing to weigh me down, brothers. In our journeys we must take the essential and leave the excess. Unburdened, though the air in here may be dank and thick, though the lights may be dim, when I hit my stride. All I'll see is the sky." I love that! Sometimes nothing excites me more than a protein shake and some big ol' heavy dumbells to curb my enthusiasm with. A simple boy with simple pleasures.

When the sun has dropped beyond the horizon. The wine is gone. Nothing remains but the echoes of laughter and our silhouettes in the growing darkness. Just you and I. When I look into your soft green eyes and taste your kiss. When I touch your hand. When I see your delicate body revealed to me as you slip off your dress. I'll be reminded that what I feel for you will remain strong and true, Long after the pleasures of our flesh. Be it the wind or the rain. Or the moon up in the sky. The spin of the earth, or the changes in the tide. When our passion momentarily subsides I'll wonder what brought us together. What strange forces of nature, conspired to construct the present from the past. Then I'll probably unleash the most collosal fart ever witnessed this side of the mississippi and ruin the moment for us always and forever.

I just want a good friend to connect with and go from there. And NO I don't mean a friend with benefits. Retract your claws.