***UPDATE....i am here...the move went well...LONG but well...now i get to fix up this rediculously kick ass craftsman style home of my dreams!!!! hells yeah!***

i spent my teens and early adulthood placing Lloyd Dobler on my “ideal” pedestal, hopeless romantic, willing to push the limits for love, never backing down…but then i realized i do want someone who knows what they want to do with their life, as endearing as spending as much time with me as possible is…he needs to know who he is as well and enjoy doing things for himself…
so as I crested my 30’s Lloyd was replaced by Andrew Largeman, big pouty lips, all “in it”, terribly original, sensitive, yet not so together… well i have come to a decision about that one too…men in therapy are there because they NEED therapy…not so appealing anymore…i’m kinda tired of being an insane magnet…a Ms. Fix –it…i just seem to have that calm personality that attracts the unstable… but i want someone who can laugh every day without waiting for their personality to re-align ….
so basically i am over ideals…they are glossy packages that that seem to hide just how ****ed up people really are…i want you flawed...i want you ok with your flaws…i want you to not be scared to admit you are flawed…i just want someone REAL…


I AM NOT LOOKING TO FALL IN LOVE! when you start out searching for love you get caught up in fairytales and instant connections that fall flat just as quickly as they started. i want to get to know someone...really know someone and then wake up 6 months later and realize i am bat-sh*tcrazy about him!

i guess the biggest point is...i am not about games...if you want a challenge...i'm a challenging person, but i tell it like it is and i expect the same...you want a chase...i'm not your girl...cause honestly if i dig you...i can't hide it...i can't fake...i won't even try...

so i am a writer...i'm working on my second novella(the first is still unpublished...isn't that just life...) this excerpt sums things up what i want bit...

"So now on my own again, and able to be free to experience whatever sexual vices I had, it didn’t make sense to me why I went back to my daydream life. I would so easily fall into the “wouldn’t it be nice” daydreams about people that I knew, that I would love to go there with, but lacked the hutspa currently needed to break from my safe alter reality and just attempt. Daydreams don’t hurt you. Daydreams make life that much more interesting. You can say whatever you want to say in a daydream because nine times out of ten you will hear the response you actually LONG to hear (the tenth time you find yourself pathetic enough to break your own heart…) This is the state I find my day to day trapped in. That moment of finally saying it exactly like I wanted to say it so many times…without fear of rejection, so what if he says no, hell you tried…without fear of him disappearing, cause in your daydreams he does always come back and its in some cheesy Reality Bites kinda way that’s so forgivable, plus he has a kick ass one of a kind pendant or a hand made box in his possession that he happened to see and immediately think of you and how much he ****ed up by letting you go. Yeah it’s safe to fall in love in your daydreams. Men actually act like…well they act in a way that seems so natural to women, in the only way that really makes sense. They put away their fake charm and let you break down their walls. They want to hold you while taking a bubble bath and they don’t freak out when you tell them you love them. And they actually have the courage to say what they mean without later retracting the statement."

*****i have posted ALOT of interests....if yours don't mesh with mine, please don't contact me just cause you may think i have a pretty face or always kinda wondered what a tattooed girl would be like....i want to make some real friends here...people that i just jive with...its not hard to figure out******

be original...in other words figure out enough about me so we don't end up in some confining setting that you may think is impressive just for the sake of impressing...i don't need to be impressed....i just want real...

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